In 2014 I was living in Nashville, and the word that best describes that season is trenches. My kids were reeling (each in their own way) in the still-raw aftermath of their biological mother’s passing three years earlier. I was parenting children I did not give birth to, trying to help them make sense of a story that had no clean lines. I didn’t have a way to say “this is who you are and where you come from” without also saying “and some of it is broken, and some of it we may never know.”

It was somewhere in the middle of the trenches… the school calls and the therapy appointments.. the endless nights when I’d lie awake asking whether I was enough for children whose DNA is not of my own that I read a sentence that haunted me. The words came from Daniel Siegel, the psychiatrist who spent decades studying how parents bond with their children. In his book Mindsight, he writes: “The best predictor of a child’s security of attachment is not what happened to his parents as children, but rather how his parents made sense of those childhood experiences.”

I set the book down and sat with it for a long time.

What Siegel was saying is that the most important thing we can do for the next generation is to have made meaning of the one we had. The work isn’t in the past, it’s in the making sense.

That hit me in a place I wasn’t expecting because the truth was, I wasn’t just fighting for my kids’ ability to make sense of their story.. I was also in the middle of making sense of my own. You know how your parents tell you: just wait until you become a parent? So many things had never surfaced for me until I became a parent hence I wasn’t just confronting the stories my kids were in the midst of, I was re-reading my family’s disfunction, the patterns I’d inherited and was only just beginning to name. And I was bringing to all of it a decade of work that had already shaped me in ways I was only starting to understand.

Before I said yes to a widower with 4 motherless kids, I had spent years working with displaced people: mostly refugees and asylum seekers from Afghanistan and Iraq, people living in transit across Europe or resettling in the United States. I sat with young men and women who had crossed continents and borders because staying meant death, prison, or a life too small to survive in. I learned something in those years that I carry into everything I do now: I don’t romanticize the story of migration. The courage it takes to leave is real, but so is the devastation. The risk is massive. The options are often none. And the impact of those choices: the severing, the reinvention, the grief that has no return address lingers in families for generations. Sometimes we carry it without knowing what it is. Sometimes we feel the pull back toward a place we’ve never been and cannot explain why.

I felt it myself. Standing on the shore of a lake in central Norway, in the exact place my Anderson ancestors had left from in 1865, I felt something deeply emotional begin to surface. A recognition that wasn’t memory and a belonging that wasn’t earned. and I also think about my Scottish ancestors who left from Roslin, near Edinburgh in the late 1800’s. I learned that my maternal great-great-grandfather whose first wife died and then married a woman who took on his children from the first marriage. A story that mirrors my own, wish I could go back in time and talk to her. My interest in all of this is not academic rather it’s incredibly personal. And it comes from decades of work, of geography and people and story shaping me, of sitting in rooms where migration was not history but the present tense. Stories that haunted me as I crossed the ocean effortlessly to the comfort of my home. Their names, their faces, their stories leaving an indelible mark on me.

So when Siegel’s sentence landed in my lap, it didn’t arrive in a vacuum. It landed on top of everything I had already lived: the refugee work, the ancestry research, the parenting, the therapy, the accumulation of evidence that our stories are far bigger and far older than we think.

I want to be clear: making sense of our story is not the same thing as resolution. It is not the same thing as forgetting, or forgiving on command, nor is it arriving at some tidy place where the past no longer aches. It means looking back with curiosity instead of contempt. It means sitting with the complexity of people who love us imperfectly and asking not just what happened, but what was happening to them when it happened. What were the pressures and the inherited wounds they carried into the rooms where they raised us?

And that is where the story gets bigger than any single family.

Here is something I find astonishing: your bones record your history of place.

Your bones carry the geography of your life. The places you have been are written into your body at a molecular level.

And it goes deeper than geography. Epigenetics (the study of how environmental factors influence gene expression without altering DNA itself) has shown us that trauma doesn’t just live in the mind. It can alter the chemical markers on our genes, and those alterations can be passed to subsequent generations. Rachel Yehuda’s landmark research at Mount Sinai found that children of Holocaust survivors carried biological signatures of a trauma they never personally experienced. A 2025 study in Nature found altered DNA patterns in third-generation Holocaust descendants: patterns associated with heightened oxytocin system activation, as if the body had learned, across generations, to reach harder for human connection as a survival strategy.

Mark Wolynn writes about this idea in It Didn’t Start with You that the anxieties and patterns we can’t explain may have their roots not in our own experience but in the unresolved trauma of previous generations. That the core sentences we repeat to ourselves under stress may not even be ours. They may be inherited fragments of a story that was never completed, spoken, or never made sense of by the people who lived it. Wolynn suggests that healing begins when we stop asking “What’s wrong with me?” and start asking “What happened in my family that I’m still carrying?”

The science is still being refined. But the direction is clear: we carry more than we know. Our cellular life extends backward through generations. The anxiety you can’t name, the grief that surfaces in unfamiliar places, the pull toward a landscape you’ve never visited … these may not be metaphorical. They may be, in some biological sense, memory.

I have spent the last several years building a travel company, Sudden Journeys, around an idea that felt intuitive long before I could articulate it: that travel, done well, is a form of making sense and paying attention.

It had to be more than sightseeing and it wasn’t about consumption. Nor was it the performance of having been somewhere, documented in photographs and posted for proof. Instead it is the sometimes uncomfortable and exhilarating work of standing in a place and asking what it has to do with you. Or maybe what it has to do with the people who came before you. What it has to do with the choices you are making now, today in your own life and with your own kids.

Heritage travel tends to stop short of this. Often the focus being you research where your family came from, you find the parish or the port and the census record. Maybe you book a trip, cross an ocean, and stand in front of a church where your great-great-grandmother was baptized. You feel something for sure… a catch in the throat, a strange recognition for a place you’ve never been, and maybe a sadness you didn’t anticipate. And then you fly home, and the feeling fades, and the framed photo of the church goes on the mantel, and that is the end of it.

But what if it isn’t the end? What if the church was just the beginning? And the point where you start asking the harder, more interesting questions? Not just where did they live, but why did they leave? Not just the facts of the departure, but the interior life of it: the fear, the calculation, the faith or desperation that made someone put everything they knew into a trunk and walk toward a ship. What was the economic pressure? The political persecution? The famine, the mine closure, the clearance, the landlord’s eviction notice? And what did it cost them: not just in miles, but in identity, in language, in the names they changed and the stories they stopped telling?

And then the question that matters most: what does their leaving still mean for you?

I have been through enough therapy and counseling to know that the temptation, when we look at our family stories, is to look with either contempt or sentimentality. We either blame our parents and even grandparents for the ways they failed us, or we romanticize them into saints who sacrificed everything. Neither posture is honest and neither gets us anywhere.

I recently read a piece from the The Ancestral Healing Center, a community doing thoughtful work in this space, and they put it in a way I keep coming back to: the shift we need is from judgment to curiosity. From asking “Why were they so cruel?” to wondering “What was their world demanding of them?” We are not just inheritors of names and trauma… we are inheritors of the worlds our ancestors had to survive in. And those worlds were often brutal, constrained, and devoid of the choices we take for granted. As long as we judge, we stay locked in the version of the story that serves our grievance. When we trade judgment for context, the story begins to soften. And with it, something in us softens too.

The harder, more generative posture is curiosity. The willingness to hold two truths at once: that something was done to us that should not have been done, and that the person who did it was also carrying something they did not know how to put down.

This is what Dan Allender has spent decades doing at the Allender Center in Seattle; inviting people into their own stories with what I can only call holy curiosity. This isn’t to excuse what happened nor is it to perform forgiveness before you’re ready. But to look at the whole thing… the beauty and the wreckage and say: this is mine. This is what I come from. And I am not trapped in it. This isn’t the whole story. It doesn’t end here.

And this is where Siegel’s sentence comes back and rewrites everything: the degree to which we make sense of our story is the degree to which our children will make sense of theirs.

If that is true (and I believe it is true in my bones, in the very bones that carry the isotopic record of every place I have ever lived) then making sense of our story is not a luxury or self-indulgence. It is one of the most consequential things we will ever do for ourselves.. and our children or the people we choose to partner ourselves with.

This is why I designed the Origin Stories tours.

Not as heritage travel in the conventional sense, though the records, the genealogists, and the parish churches are part of it. Not as therapy, though emotions surface and the space is held for them. Not simply as history lessons, though the history: the Great Famine, the Highland Clearances, the Plantation of Ulster, the coffin ships, the names changed at port or in fear or in hope, is present and visceral and refuses to stay in the past tense.

These Origin Story tours are for seekers… for people who feel untethered to their heritage, who sense that mysterious gaps in their family history are also gaps in their understanding of themselves. Many of the people who come are in the middle of a life transition that has left them reaching backward for solid ground. Some are trying to honor a parent or grandparent they didn’t fully know. Some are curious to know the origins of their family and feel connected to someone whose DNA they share but never knew. Some are tired of carrying a story they’ve never examined and ready to look at it with open hands.

The first Origin Stories tour was in England. This October, I have designed one for Ireland: both the Republic and Northern Ireland. I thought long and hard about this and decided on both because the Irish story is one of the most powerful migration narratives in human history, and because it is rarely told as one continuous story across both countries. Most tours stay in the Republic or visit Northern Ireland as a day trip. But the story of why people left Ireland cannot be separated from the story of the Ulster-Scots, from the Plantation, from the Troubles, from the long and ongoing work of reconciliation. These are not two stories. They are one story with a border drawn through it, woven through with music and poetry and a stubbornness about faith and identity that I find holy and deeply complex. And you cannot understand what emigration meant and what it still means without walking both sides.

What makes these tours different from a genealogy or heritage trip is what happens between the sites. The reading of O’Donohue in the landscape that formed him. The music sessions in village pubs where the singing is the way an entire culture processes its grief and its joy in the same breath. The conversations with families whose people stayed, who can tell you what the leaving looked like from the other side. The discussions with those who are daily doing the work of reconciliation in real time. The unhurried, intentional space to sit with what comes up when you stand in a Famine museum and suddenly understand, in your body, that the weight you carry might be older than you.

I want to say one more thing, and it’s the thing underneath all the other things.

There is a thread running through our stories that I cannot prove empirically, though the science is beginning to gesture toward it. Call it divine or sacred. Call it the mystery of the fact that our cells remember, that our bones record, that our children inherit not just our eye color but our unresolved grief. I have seen it in the faces of travelers standing in a churchyard in England, holding a name they recognize.

And I believe we can change the story. We don’t change by erasing it. Not by pretending the trauma didn’t happen or that the leaving wasn’t devastating or that the silence in our families was anything other than what it was. But we change the story by choosing to turn toward it. By looking at it with curiosity and active compassion, by asking the questions our parents couldn’t ask and sitting with the answers our grandparents couldn’t bear.

At the heart of all of this, for me, is seeing people into freedom of who they are now. Not haunted or bound by their past. Not carrying someone else’s unopened story into the next generation because nobody had the courage or the context to open it. I believe one of the bravest things we can do is to do the work of making sense of who we are and what it means to belong. What it means to take risks, to build a family, to love people whose origins are different from your own.

Life is brief and tedious. And we are, in the end, as my brilliant friend Gareth Higgins said, stardust… assembled for a moment into these specific bodies, in these specific places, carrying these specific stories. The question is not whether the stories matter. They do. The question is whether we will look at them. Whether we will cross the ocean, stand on the shore, walk into the church, sit in the pub where the fiddle starts up, and let ourselves feel what we came to feel.

The degree to which we make sense of our story is the degree to which our children will make sense of theirs. That is not just a parenting insight. It is a theology of inheritance. And it begins, sometimes, with a plane ticket and a willingness to stand in the place where the story started and ask: What happened here? What does it have to do with me? And what am I going to do with it now?

I am ready to look.

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Kyle Campbell is the founder of Sudden Journeys, a boutique travel company designing story-centered journeys across the UK and Europe. Her next tour, Origin Stories: Ireland, runs October 10–17, 2026, from Dublin through the Irish Countrysie to Belfast. This is an 8-day journey through the landscapes, music, and migration routes that shaped Irish and Scots-Irish identity.

Highlights Include:

• Visit EPIC The Irish Emigration Museum to explore the story of Irish migration and its impact on Irish-American identity.

• Explore Strokestown Park House and Famine Museum, learning about the Great Famine and the Irish emigration it triggered.

• Visit Londonderry, connecting you to the history of Irish and Ulster-Scots migration. Learn about the Ulster-Scots migration and its influence on Irish-American communities.

• Marvel at the geological wonder of the Giant’s Causeway, a UNESCO World Heritage Site.

• Explore the historic Dunluce Castle, tied to Irish clan history and migration.

• Participate in private genealogy workshops to trace your ancestral roots and understand your family’s migration story.

• Enjoy live Irish music sessions and traditional storytelling, connecting you to the cultural tapestry of Ireland.

• Experience the breathtaking landscapes of the Mourne Mountains and the Irish countryside, with guided visits to key historical sites.

• Spend time at leisure in Dublin, Belfast, and Newcastle, revisiting your favorite sites or enjoying personal exploration.

Details:

When: October 10–17, 2026

Where: We’ll be based in Dublin (3 nights), Kingdom of Mourne (1 night) Belfast (3 night)

Who: The tour is limited to 10 guests

Tour Hosts: Kyle Campbell along with several special guests

What: The tour is seven nights and eight full days, with two trips to the Irish countryside. But don’t worry, you’ll also have some downtime in Dublin and Belfast to explore on your own.

How: Want more details, including pricing and the full itinerary? Click below to learn more and sign up.

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Welcome - I’m Kyle, the soul behind Sudden Journeys. I’m a writer, photographer, and founder of Sudden Journeys. I’ve spent the last few decades exploring: guiding travelers, leading tours, living abroad, and paying close attention to what landscapes, rooms, and encounters awaken in us. I write about place and belonging, hospitality and gathering, the practice of attention through journaling, and the home life between departures. Originally from a small town south of Nashville; I divide my time between the English countryside, London, and wherever the road takes me next.

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When I first learned I would be moving to Northamptonshire, I did what I always do. I’m a travel guide by profession and a researcher by compulsion… so I went looking for books. Guidebooks. Blog posts. Youtube videos. Anything that could tell me about the place I was about to call home.

I couldn’t find anything. Not a curated reading list or a glossy Lonely Planet chapter, not a dog-eared Rick Steve’s Guide tucked in the back of a bookshop. Nothing. A county in the center of England, and the publishing world had simply... looked past it. Trust me, I have looked (and continue to).

At first, this annoyed me. I wasn’t just passing through. I was moving there… uprooting my enter life, my family and planting it in a corner of England I had no map for, no literary preparation, no expectations to organize my seeing. I felt like I was going in blind. But I was also secretly thrilled.

Because if there is one thing I’ve learned in twenty-five years of guiding people through unfamiliar places, it’s that the best arrivals are the ones you haven’t rehearsed. The places that haven’t been pre-narrated for you. The places where you walk out the door on your first morning and the landscape has to introduce itself.

And that’s exactly what happened.

That first morning

I’ll never forget it. I woke in my new home.. an 18th century farm cottage… stone walls, low ceilings, large wood beams and a open fireplace.. and set out on foot to explore.

The first village I reached was Barnwell. Driving through the canopy of leafy trees along a single lane and a brook I was instantly captivated. The early morning light was shimmering off the brook that runs through the center of the village, where a stone bridge.. small and unassuming arches over the water toward a thirteenth-century church. Later I’d learn this was called The Queen’s Walk as it connected the castle with the church. Behind the church, the ruins of Barnwell Castle - originally Montague Castle - lay dormant and crumbling, built in 1266 by a Norman family. There were thatched cottages. A pub on the village green located known as The Monty. A red telephone box turn public library from 1935 standing on the grass like a sentry from another century.

I genuinely thought I was walking through the storybook of my childhood. The England of illustrated fairy tales. Except no one had illustrated this. No one had framed it or marketed it or put it on a tea towel. It was just there.. being itself, for no audience at all.

And then there was Wadenhoe.

If Barnwell was a storybook, Wadenhoe was a living fairy tale. I walked through the village down to the river where the River Nene pools outside a former mill house. I’d soon learn the river threads through so much of this county. I found myself among houses with names like Rose Cottage, Wisteria House, Dovecote House. A row of thatched cottages with climbing roses scrambling up the front. A tearoom. A pub called the King’s Head, set along the riverbank. And then a footpath that led up a hill steeply, through grazing sheep and long grass to a church at the top.

St Michael and All Angels. Founded in the Saxon era. The current tower dates to the twelfth century. And from the churchyard, you can see five other church spires across the Nene Valley, the countryside rolling out beneath you in every direction.. meadow, marsh, woodland, the river curving silver through the green.

I stood there and understood, for the first time, why this county is called the county of spires and squires. And to this day, almost a decade later, I wake up continuing to be enchanted by this place I call home.

A county you drive through

Here is what most people know about Northamptonshire: it’s on the way to somewhere else.

The M1 cleaves right through it. So does the A14. The A1, also known as The Great North Road… Britain’s most storied highway is the same route that has carried travelers from London to Edinburgh since medieval coaching days and follows stretches of the Roman Ermine Street before that skirts the county’s eastern edge. And the road I drive most days, the A605, traces the line of a Roman road that once connected Irchester to the great settlement at Durobrivae near Wansford. Even Watling Street, the Roman road that once marked the boundary between Anglo-Saxon England and the Danelaw, runs through western Northamptonshire on its way from London to the north. This county has been a crossroads for two thousand years. And yet millions of cars a year cross it at seventy miles an hour, drivers’ eyes locked on the white lines, and almost none of them stop. If you’ve driven from London to Birmingham or York, you’ve been in Northamptonshire. You just didn’t notice.

And that’s one of the things I love most about it. Because the places that get overlooked are almost always the places worth seeing most. The places nobody is trying to sell you.

Spires and squires

For centuries, Northamptonshire has been known as the county of spires and squires. Named this for the medieval church spires that punctuate its skyline, and the extraordinary concentration of stately homes whose families, in many cases, have lived on the same land for five or six hundred years.

These aren't museum-houses. Not properties acquired by heritage trusts because the last heir died or the roof caved in. These are homes where the same family still opens the curtains every morning, still walks the corridors their Tudor ancestors walked, still sits at dinner beneath paintings of people who share their surname and their jawline. Rockingham Castle has been in the same family for over 450 years. The Spencers are still at Althorp. The Drydens are still at Canons Ashby. The Brudenells have been at Deene Park since 1514. That’s over five centuries in the same house! And at Southwick Hall, just north of Oundle, three interconnected families have occupied the same manor since the twelfth century: the Knyvetts built it in the 1300s, the Lynns inherited by marriage in 1442, and the Caprons (who still live there today) arrived in 1840. Eight hundred years, one house, three families bound by blood and stone. In most English counties, this kind of continuity is a rarity. In Northamptonshire, it's the norm.

The reason, I think, is revealing: Northamptonshire has only three National Trust properties. And that’s not because it lacks grand houses, but because the families never left. They didn’t sell up. They didn’t die out. They stayed, and they stay still, opening their doors each season so that visitors can peer through the keyhole at six centuries of unbroken domestic life.

And the churches. All Saints in Brixworth dates to 680 AD, the largest surviving Anglo-Saxon church in England. If it were in the Cotswolds, there would be a line round the block. Here, you can walk in on a Tuesday afternoon and have the nave to yourself. You can stand in a building that has held human prayer for nearly fourteen centuries and hear nothing but your own breathing and the sound of wood pigeons outside. It is a moving experience to sit there thinking .. in this place, people have gathered with their prayers and petitions, their praise and pleading for 14 centuries! The place itself holds no magic but it’s knowing this place called a presence of the past.. you feel like you’re among a linage of people before you and in that… you don’t feel so alone. That silent reverence is a gift. And it is one of the things Northamptonshire gives you that the more famous counties cannot.

A landscape that doesn’t perform

I think one reason Northamptonshire gets overlooked is that its beauty doesn’t shout. It’s understated.

This is not the drama of the Lake District, where the mountains rear up and demand that you feel something. It’s not the windswept mystery of Cornwall, where the cliffs and moors carry the weight of Arthurian legend and Daphne du Maurier. It’s not the self-conscious prettiness of the Cotswolds, where every village looks like it was dressed for a magazine shoot. And its towns don’t carry the famous literary or academic associations of Oxford, Stratford-upon-Avon, or Cambridge.. names that do half the marketing work before a visitor even arrives.

Northamptonshire’s beauty is subtle, more secretive. It is a landscape of gentle undulation.. a great green swell that lifts you to ridge crests where church towers appear, then drops you into hollows where hidden villages sit tucked and waiting.

The stone here is ironstone and limestone: warm, orange-gold in the south, pale and honeyed in the north.. giving the cottages the look of something baked rather than built. The hedgerows are dense, threaded with mature native trees. The lanes are narrow and unsigned. There are villages in South Northamptonshire like Preston Capes, Abthorpe, Wappenham that could stand shoulder to shoulder with anything in the Cotswolds and not blink, but which have never appeared in a Sunday supplement and probably never will.

And here’s the thing: that’s part of what makes them beautiful. They haven’t been performing for an audience. They’re not curated. They haven’t been staged. They are simply places where people have lived for a very long time, and where the architecture and the landscape have grown into each other.

I often reference the geographer Yi-Fu Tuan who wrote about the difference between space and place, how raw space becomes place only through human experience, through the slow accumulation of memory and attention and meaning. Northamptonshire is saturated in exactly this kind of becoming. The place-names tell you everything: Saxon words, Danish words, Norman words, layered like sediment. The drove roads and footpaths still follow routes that predate the English language. Watling Street (the Roman road) still runs through, and Towcester still sits on the ruins of the Roman settlement of Lactodurum.

This is deep England. Forget the England of tourist boards and tea towels and period dramas. This is the actual thing. The ground itself.

The Gunpowder Plot, the Civil War, and the origins of America

The history here is not background texture, it’s more like the main event.. and it’s everywhere, layered and tangled and still somehow alive. At Fotheringhay, Richard III was born. Mary Queen of Scots was executed. At Ashby St Ledgers, the Gunpowder Plot was conceived. At Naseby, Oliver Cromwell won the battle that decided the English Civil War.

But the thread that astonishes me most and the one that I discovered slowly, living here, and that still gives me chills.. and that is how deeply Northamptonshire is woven into the origins of America itself.

Start with Robert Browne. In 1591, Browne became rector of the tiny parish church at Achurch, a village I can walk to from my house. Before that, he had been imprisoned 32 times for his radical belief that congregations should govern themselves, free from the authority of the state. His followers became known as the Brownists. A majority of the passengers on the Mayflower in 1620 were Brownists. For two hundred years, the Pilgrims were known as the Brownist Emigration. Robert Browne, the Father of the Pilgrims, the man whose ideas seeded American democracy spent the last 40 years of his life preaching in a stone church in Achurch, a village of fewer than two hundred people.

Then there is Edmund Quincy II. Born in 1602 in the hamlet of Wigsthorpe (my village!). Quincy grew up on a small estate, moving to the neighboring Achurch before converting to Puritanism and sailing to the New World in 1633 on the Griffin, alongside the clergyman John Cotton. His daughter Judith Quincy (1626–1695), married John Hull (1620–1683), leading merchant and mintmaster of Massachusetts Bay Colony. Edmund settled at Mount Wollaston in what is now Quincy, Massachusetts, a city named for his family. His descendant Daniel Quincy was the great-grandfather of Abigail Adams, wife of the second President of the United States, John Adams, and mother of the sixth, John Quincy Adams. One descendant named Eliza Susan Quincy wrote in 1844 that Edmund once had "a genealogical account of the Quincy family, which traced their descent from the time of the Norman Conquest," which Abigail Adams apparently owned at one time, as well, but after a century in America it was then unfortunately borrowed and never returned and has now been lost for more than 50 years.

I think about this sometimes. That a family tree connecting the White House to a hamlet of a few stone cottages in the Nene Valley was once a single parchment, passed between hands that had touched both places.

And then there are the Washingtons. At Sulgrave Manor, Lawrence Washington who was a wool merchant and twice Mayor of Northampton, built the family home after buying the land from Henry VIII in 1539. His descendant John Washington, a Royalist whose family’s fortunes collapsed after the Civil War, sailed for Virginia in 1656 against his mother’s wishes (imagined had he listened to his mom and not set sail for America!). John was the great-grandfather of George Washington. Above the entrance to Sulgrave Manor, you can still see the Washington coat of arms carved in stone: three stars above two horizontal bars, a design long said to have inspired the Stars and Stripes. And at St James’s Church in nearby Thrapston (a village just 10 minutes south of me), a stone tablet bears those same arms. Sir John Washington, George’s ancestor, lived in Thrapston and is buried in that churchyard. I’ve been told American visitors still make the pilgrimage to a market town most Americans have never heard of, to stand before a coat of arms older than their country.

These are not minor footnotes. These are hinge-points in Western history.. in the founding mythology of America and they all happened within the borders of a county most people can’t locate on a map. And I’ve only begun to tap into the various English connections to early American history that tie these places together. But I’ll leave that for another post.

Not the Cotswolds

There’s a phrase gaining currency: Northamptonshire as the Cotswolds of the Midlands. I understand the impulse… the honey-colored stone, charming villages, the rolling countryside, the village greens and historic pubs. But I think it gets the relationship backwards. Northamptonshire doesn’t need to be the Cotswolds of anything. The Cotswolds have become, in many ways, a brand.. a sort of curated experience, a place where the primary industry is now tourism itself. The villages are gorgeous, yes, but they’re also heaving with visitors and priced accordingly. What was once genuine has been polished into product. Don’t get me wrong, I adore The Cotswolds and it continues to woo me as it does others. But the shine has worn off when you see more outsiders roaming the village lanes than you do locals.

Northamptonshire hasn’t undergone that transformation.. thankfully. And I pray it never does. Because what this county still has.. and what the Cotswolds have largely lost.. is the quality of being unselfconscious. A village like Rockingham or Grafton Underwood or Barnwell doesn’t have to be told it’s charming nor does it feel the need to let others know. Nobody has turned up with a camera crew and a property developer and a vision for converting the old barn into a wellness center. These places are still lived-in in the truest sense. They belong to the people who wake up in them.

What I mean when I say the heart

When I say Northamptonshire is the heart of the English countryside, I don’t only mean it geographically though I could. This county sits in the literal center of England, landlocked between eight other counties, touching Warwickshire to the west, Oxfordshire to the south, Leicestershire to the north. It is the middle of the middle.

But I also mean it the other way. The heart as the essential organ. The thing that pumps quietly, invisibly, keeping the body alive. Northamptonshire does this for the idea of the English countryside. It holds the oldest churches, the longest-tenured families, the least-disturbed landscapes, the deepest layers of history and it does it all without any fanfare, without any branding, without asking to be noticed. There’s a kind of integrity in that. A landscape that doesn’t audition. A county that doesn’t market itself. A place that simply is, and has been, for more than a thousand years.

Why you should go

You should go to Northamptonshire because it will change how you see England. Because it will remind you what the countryside is supposed to feel like before the machinery of tourism gets hold of it. Go to Fotheringhay and stand in the church where the Yorkist dynasty prayed or the castle mound where the Fotheringhay Castle once stood, where Mary Queen of Scots was beheaded and her entrails buried in the surrounding ground. Walk the footpaths around Wappenham and Southwick and watch the light change over fields that have been farmed since before the Domesday Book. Sit in the nave at Brixworth and feel the weight of 13 centuries of prayers and praise. Drive the lanes between the villages and notice how the ironstone cottages glow in the late afternoon like something lit from within. Walk up the hill at Wadenhoe and count the spires. And when you get home, tell no one.

This is my home now

Northamptonshire is no longer unknown to me. It hasn’t been for a long time. I know when the bluebells emerge in Old Sulehay Wood… that ancient remnant of Rockingham Forest where the floor turns violet-blue and the air smells of wild garlic this time of year. I know when to look for the snowdrops at Deene Park, those delicate white heads bowing beneath the bare trees in February. I know when the first blush of roses appears on the cottage walls of Wadenhoe and when the lambs show up in the pastures of Pilton. I know when the cherry tree blossoms in the churchyard at Lower Benefield and when the lilacs spill over the stone walls leading into Oundle. I know the women who run the gift shop at Kirby Hall. I have a local florist and a local butcher. The newsstand agent knows my Sunday paper routine. There is a local pub where we run into neighbors and friends.

A decade ago, I couldn’t find Northamptonshire on a map. The village names were foreign and strange to me: Wadenhoe, Fotheringhay, Achurch, Pilton, Wigsthorpe.. they were all syllables that meant nothing, attached to places I’d never seen. Now those names evoke feelings and memories. They appear in my mind like favorite characters in a well-loved book I’ve read over and over again. Each one carries a season, a story, a walk I’ve taken, a conversation I’ve had in a pub, a memory exploring with my kids.

As someone who has lived a nomadic life.. who hasn’t had a place to call home since I left my childhood house at 18; this corner of England.. Northamptonshire has been my soft place to land. A place I call home for however long she’ll have me. A place that has romanced me, healed me, held me, and allowed me to flourish. And maybe that’s the truest thing I can say about this county nobody mentions: it doesn’t need to be discovered. It needs to be lived in. It needs someone to stay long enough to learn its rhythms. And if you do… if you give it that kind of time and attention, it will give you back everything the famous places promise but can no longer deliver. Stillness. Belonging. The feeling that the ground beneath your feet has been waiting for you.

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Kyle’s Northamptonshire: A Personal Guide

If I’ve convinced you, here’s where I’d send you. This isn’t a comprehensive list — it’s a personal one, the places I return to, the places I’d take a friend.

Favorite Villages

• Wadenhoe: The village that made me fall in love. Stone cottages, the King’s Head pub on the river, the footpath up to St Michael and All Angels. Go in June when the roses are climbing.

• Barnwell: My first walk. The brook, the castle ruins, the village green. Thatched cottages. I will forever adore this village.

• Oundle: The market town nearest to me and my center of gravity. Independent shops, a weekly market, the famous Oundle School. Start at the Talbot Hotel, which has a staircase salvaged from Fotheringhay Castle.

• Fotheringhay: The church alone is worth the drive. Richard III’s birthplace, Mary Queen of Scots’ end. Stand on the mound where the castle once stood and look out over the Nene. Also a lovely pub, The Falcon Inn.

• Achurch: Where Robert Browne preached and the Quincy family lived. A tiny village with outsized significance and a beautiful walk across the fields to Wadenhoe. This is my favorite church in the area. There is also a folly in the wood past the cemetery, in the wood near the river.

• Pilton: A blink-and-you-miss-it hamlet between Oundle and Wadenhoe. The pastures here are where I watch for lambs every spring.

• Ashby St Ledgers: Where the Gunpowder Plot was hatched. Thatched cottages, the Blessed Virgin Mary church, and a Lutyens-designed manor house.

• Rockingham: Perched above Corby with a castle built on William the Conqueror’s orders, still privately owned and open to visitors. Lovely village as well with a cozy tea room.

• Southwick: A beautifully preserved estate village with a long main street of golden stone houses. Adore the church and the daffodils cover the fields in bloom every march.

• Lowick: Home to the Snooty Fox and a stunning medieval church with some of the finest monuments in the county.

• Brigstock: An ancient village on the edge of Rockingham Forest with Saxon origins and excellent walking.

• Aldwincle: Birthplace of the poet John Dryden and the theologian Thomas Fuller, set along the Nene.

• Cotterstock: A tiny hamlet with a gorgeous hall and a quiet church overlooking the river.

• King’s Cliffe: A larger village with wonderful stone architecture, an ancient cross, and access to the forests beyond.

• Duddington: A jewel of a village on the Welland, with a medieval bridge and a setting that feels completely timeless.

• Ashton: The Rothschilds’ model village, entirely built of stone and thatch. Home to the Chequered Skipper pub and feral peacocks.

Historic Locations

• Brixworth, All Saints Church: The largest surviving Anglo-Saxon church in England, dating to 680 AD.

• Sulgrave Manor: Ancestral home of the Washington family.

• Kirby Hall: An Elizabethan great house, partly ruined, entirely atmospheric. I never tired of this place.

• Deene Park: Tudor and Georgian mansion, home of the Brudenells since 1514. Go for Snowdrop Sundays in February. I love their tea room and wandering the gardens on a Sunday afternoon.

• Canons Ashby: A Tudor manor house (National Trust), home of the Dryden family. Quiet, literary, beautiful.

• Naseby Battlefield: Where the English Civil War was decided in 1645. A monument marks the spot. The village is lovely.

• Lyveden: The unfinished Elizabethan lodge, built by the Catholic Tresham family as an act of devotion. Hauntingly incomplete.

• Peterborough Cathedral: Technically just beyond the historic county boundary, but intimately connected to Northamptonshire’s story. Norman architecture on a breathtaking scale, and the original burial place of Catherine of Aragon and Mary Queen of Scots.

• Burghley House: An Elizabethan masterpiece near Stamford, built by William Cecil, Lord Burghley. One of the grandest houses in England.

• Stowe: Just over the border in Buckinghamshire, but the estate’s parkland once stretched into Northamptonshire. One of the finest landscape gardens in Europe, designed by Capability Brown, Kent, and Vanbrugh.

Nature and Walking

• Old Sulehay Wood: Ancient remnant of Rockingham Forest. Bluebells and wild garlic in spring, glow-worms in summer.

• The Nene Way: A long-distance footpath following the River Nene through the heart of the county.

• Twywell Hills and Dales: Wildflower meadows and limestone grassland.

• Barnwell Country Park: Lakes, willow-fringed paths, and easy walking near Oundle.

• Fineshade Wood: On the edge of Rockingham Forest, with trails through ancient woodland and a good café.

• Castle Ashby Gardens: Formal gardens, parkland, and a long walk through the estate. The arboretum is magnificent. I especially love the glass house.

• Coton Manor Gardens: A plantsman’s garden of the highest order, with wildflower meadows, bluebell woods, and a flamingo flock that feels like a hallucination in the Northamptonshire countryside.

• Evenley Wood Garden: A private woodland garden with over 3,000 varieties of trees, shrubs, and bulbs. Best in spring when the snowdrops and daffodils are out. But really it’s the Camillas in bloom every April that do it for me.

Tearooms and Cafés

• Elsie Vintage Tea:A proper vintage tearoom experience. Tiered cake stands, china cups, the works.

• Fawsley Hall: Afternoon tea in a Tudor great hall. Indulgent and worth every penny.

• Barnwell Garden Centre Café: Not glamorous, but honest and good. All locals.

• Rockingham Tearoom: Cozy, welcoming, and exactly where you want to be after a walk.

Best Pubs

• The Montagu Arms, Barnwell: A proper village pub with a thatched roof and real ale, on the green where my love affair with this county began.

• The Snooty Fox, Lowick: Award-winning gastropub with a Belgian beer wall, outstanding steaks and lobster, and a seventeenth-century stone building with real character.

• The Chequered Skipper, Ashton: A thatched pub on the village green of the Rothschilds’ model village, named for a rare butterfly. In the CAMRA Good Beer Guide for over a decade.

• The Queens Head, Bulwick: A stone-built pub in a village that time seems to have forgotten, in the best possible way.

• The Falcon Inn, Fotheringhay: A local pub with pizzas on Friday and cozy fires in the winter.

Places to Stay

• The Talbot Hotel, Oundle: A seventeenth-century coaching inn with a staircase from Fotheringhay Castle. The heart of Oundle.

• Fawsley Hall: A Tudor country house hotel set in 2,000 acres of parkland. Knightley family seat turned luxury retreat, with a spa, fine dining, and the kind of silence money usually can’t buy.

• The Falcon Hotel, Castle Ashby: Fine dining and a spa in a stunning estate setting.

• Rural holiday cottages: Search for self-catering cottages near Oundle, Rockingham, or the Nene Valley. The best ones are in converted barns and farmhouses.. stone walls, low beams, a fireplace you’ll never want to leave.

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There is a place deep in the Northamptonshire countryside that is not on the way to anywhere. You have to be looking for it. That is the first thing I love about Kirby Hall, and it may be the most important.

You take a single track lane. Through the hedge, in flashes, you catch your first glimpses of the house. You cross a cattle gate and stop the car. Ahead of you stands what must have once been the most impressive structure for miles in any direction. It is not that anymore. It is something better. It is a ruin that has not yet forgotten what it was.

The car park is small, more like an afterthought. You walk along a wide path lined with towering chestnut trees, and the hall teases you through gaps in the high walls, giving you a gable end, a stone finial, the curve of an Elizabethan window, then pulling it back. It’s the kind of place that makes you come to it. It does not come to you.

You enter, by an exit through a small gift shop. You are greeted by feral peacocks who regard you with complete indifference except for the possible snack. And then you cross the threshold, and the century you came from falls away.

The place is hauntingly gorgeous. Not restored to a shine. The walls still stand with some rooms open to the sky in places. You walk through doorways that once held heavy oak and now hold nothing but air and light and four hundred years of silence. Some rooms the paint is peeling, the wood floors bend and creek with each step. The space is mostly empty yet you can feel the lives these walls contained.

'I’ve been bringing my kids here for years. It’s one of those places that holds its atmosphere and leaves room for the imagination. The glass in the large bay windows is warped with age, so the view bends and ripples, and for a moment the ghost of the grand avenue reappears: the lined trees still growing, still keeping their formation for an arrival that will never come again well.. except maybe for the cows that graze in the pasture. No one tells you what to feel here. No local guide. No laminated plaques explaining every room. The place does not give away all its answers. It leaves your mind to wander. Your imagination to expand. Your curiosity to deepen. You stand in what was once a great hall and you are free to imagine what was. To see the candlelight and the long table and the conversation. To feel the weight of a life lived in this exact room, in this exact light, centuries before you arrived to stand in it.

I watched my kid do this. I watched them move through the ruins, inventing the story as they went, filling in the gaps as kids do… which is to say, the way all of us did once, before someone decided that experience needed to be curated and facts needed to be delivered and imagination was something you grew out of.

This place always brings to mind the novel I Capture the Castle. Dodie Smith’s narrator living in a crumbling English castle, making the world enormous through sheer attention and longing. And I thought about Anne Shirley of Green Gables, turning every ordinary landscape into something mythic.

The answer, in modern travel, is not often. And standing in that Elizabethan manor house with the sky coming through the roof and my kids disappearing around corners, I knew that this was what I wanted to build. Not a tour company. Not endless itineraries. I wanted to design a way of traveling that trusted people enough to give them back their own imagination. That took them to an unknown county in the heart of the English countryside, to a place no algorithm would ever surface, and instead of leading them through a curated performance of history… data and facts and then off we go.. I would simply hand them a few threads of the story and said: now wander… see yourself in it…imagine what was.

Kirby Hall will never make anyone’s bucket list. And that is exactly why it changed everything for me.

Here is the thing I need to say, and I need to say it plainly. In many ways, travel has become consumption. Not for everyone and not all at once. But slowly, pervasively, in the way that too many in the travel industry hollow themselves out by optimizing for the wrong thing until the right thing is no longer recognizable. This industry has spent the last several decades refining an extraordinary machine. It moves millions of people across the earth with remarkable efficiency. It has perfected the fourteen-cities-in-twelve-days itinerary, the skip-the-line upgrade, the curated experience that feels personal but is identical for every guest who books it. It has learned how to sell wonder at scale.

And in doing so, it has suffocated the very thing it was supposed to offer and with it the slow replacement of presence with performance.

You know what it looks like. You’ve probably experienced it.

You plan a trip. You consult the internet. Within minutes you are reading the same blog you read last time, written by a different person, the same social media reels, recommending the same twelve things. The same restaurants, the same viewpoints, the same “hidden gems” that are hidden from no one. You build an itinerary.. schedule and time everything because we’re sold the idea this is how to make the best use of your time. You optimize it because optimization is what we have been trained to do with everything, including beauty. You book the cooking class with someone’s grandmother that four hundred other people will take this month, each of them believing it is an authentic local experience because someone used the words authentic and local in the listing.

You arrive. You move through the itinerary with the efficiency of someone completing a task list. You see the landmarks. You photograph the site. You stand where everyone else stood to photograph the view. You post it or save it to post later, while the building or view or landmark itself is right there in front of you, asking nothing of you except your attention, which you cannot give it because your attention is already elsewhere. And then you move on. Because there is more to see. There is always more to see.

You come home. You have been to the place. You have the photographs to prove it. But something is missing… some residue, some charge, some feeling of having been altered by the encounter. You were there. But maybe you were never fully present. The experience was had, but the experience did not have you. Sometimes this is a result of managing your family’s expectations for the trip. And if you’re a woman reading this.. you are almost certainly the keeper of the itinerary, the answer to the question “what’s next?” and by way of taking on this role, you’ve lost moments to be present in this place you’ve dreamt of visiting for so long.

This becomes movement without meaning. Destination without encounter. The performance of experience in place of actual experience.

Decades ago I saw a photograph by Martin Parr that I’ve never forgotten. It is a capture of a tourist couple somewhere in the Switzerland. Behind them, rising in that absurd, cathedral atmosphere is one of the great landscapes of the world: snow, rock, sky, scale beyond the human imagination.. The Swiss Alps. The couple had their backs to it, attention towards a souvenir stand, transfixed by illustrated scarfs. The Alps might as well have been a painted backdrop on a film set. The gift shop was the event.

Parr has spent a career doing this. He has an uncanny way to capture moments both seeing the irony and humor in the moment while also confronting you. He photographs global tourism without cruelty, without editorializing, but without flinching either. That’s what I adore about his work. Feet in queues. Sunburned shoulders under Eiffel Towers. People photographing each other photographing something. His images do not argue. Rather they simply show you what is happening, and the argument arrives inside you. His work is brilliant that way.

That Swiss image has stayed with me. It stayed with me because it is not really about those particular tourists. They are stand-ins for all of us. They are what happens when movement replace meaning, when the souvenir becomes more legible than the mountain because the souvenir is small enough to hold and the mountain demands something of us we are no longer practiced at giving.

This is the power of an image to say what an essay cannot. You can write ten thousand words about the crisis of modern travel, and someone will still ask you what you mean. Or you can show them Parr’s photograph. The mountains behind. The backs turned. The illustrated map of Switzerland painted onto a scarf, held up to the light. No caption required.

I have spent twenty-five years in the travel industry. I have designed tours across more than two dozen European destinations. As a tour leader, I have stood in line with the masses and watched people move through the most beautiful places on earth with a vague, glazed expression… not because they didn’t care, but because nobody had given them permission to stop. Nobody had created the conditions for something to actually happen to them.

And the industry, almost without exception, practically ignores this entirely. It sells the backdrop and skips the story. It sells the destination and erases the encounter. It treats travelers as consumers rather than as human beings who came looking for something they didn’t know how to ask for.

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There is a deeper villain here, and I want to name it. It is the crisis of sameness.

Open any travel brand’s website. Look at the imagery: a woman in a linen dress looking at a sunset, maybe she’s floating in a pool or maybe she’s wearing a big hat and walking down the street of a popular village. Look at the language: “discover,” “explore,” “hidden gem,” “immersive experience,” “off the beaten path.” Look at the services page with three tiers. Look at the Instagram grid. Now open a different brand. And another. They are often indistinguishable.

An entire industry has arrived at the same aesthetic, the same voice, the same promise of transformation delivered in the same interchangeable packaging. I don’t believe this because any of them lack talent, rather the massive machine rewards sameness. The algorithm rewards sameness. The optimization mindset… it’s the same one that tells you to photograph the sunset instead of watching it, tells brands to replicate what works instead of making something that could only have come from one hand.

We have mistaken movement for meaning. And the industry has mistaken sameness for strategy.

I want to be precise about what I am not saying. I am not at all saying this way of travel is bad and I am not saying people who take bucket list trips are wrong. I am definitely not romanticizing difficulty or pretending that comfort is the enemy. I have taken trips that were deeply scheduled, beautifully organized, and still moved me. Structure is not the problem.

And I am emphatically not saying that everyone who works in travel is complicit in the machine. The villain in this essay is the travel industry at scale: the algorithm, the optimization mindset, the gravitational pull toward sameness. It is not the individual operator or company. Through my work with travel community supporting travel businesses, I spend time in front of hundreds of small and medium tour operators from all over the world: speaking, coaching, leading workshops on innovative experience and travel design. Other times I am reviewing websites and helping with branding and marketing messaging. And what I can tell you is that the most interesting people in this industry are also fighting the same battle I am. Designing journeys that refuse the template. Building companies that put presence over performance. Looking for unfamous places, slower paces, deeper questions. They do it differently from me, in different corners of the world, with different emotional signatures… and that is the point. The resistance is already underway. It is not monolithic. It is a hundred small fires, each burning against the same dark. I want this essay to be an ember for those fires, not a lecture to the people already tending them.

The problem comes down to this: absence of margin.

Room to linger. Room for a conversation with a stranger… to wander without a pin on a map. Margin for the thing you didn’t plan.. the meal at the restaurant you stumbled into because it started raining, the church you entered because the door was open, the afternoon you spent sitting in a field doing nothing while something enormous rearranged itself inside you. An entire day where nothing is planned. Time to get lost with no agenda and to do nothing but just be.

So many times the best moments of my traveling life have all happened in the margins between the planned things. In the white space of the itinerary, in those hours that were not accounted for. And the industry… in its relentless drive to fill every moment with value has systematically eliminated those margins. This is especially true when on organized tours as there is this anxiety that value is measured by how much you do on a trip.

I think about this constantly.

On a Sudden Journeys tour, I build in unplanned time on purpose. Usually a full day, or several half days, where the schedule goes quiet. I plan nothing but for you to have freedom to do as you desire. Where travelers are handed back to themselves and they can follow a pull that has nothing to do with an itinerary. This is a philosophy I swear by and live by because it is often in the unplanned hours where the real journey happens.

There is a way of traveling that is older than the industry and travel guidebook.. older than the bucket lists and highlight reels. It has to do with attention and the body.

The attention of the body being in a place the way you are in a warm bath or a cold wind: entirely immersed. Embodied. Feeling the texture of the air. Noticing the quality of the light at a particular time of day or how it differs from the light in a different location. Tasting the bread. Hearing the church bells and the conversations between a barista and local in a cafe and the particular silence that falls over a village where only 10 people live.

Letting a place work on you rather than consuming it. There are moments when even I (as a photographer) tell myself, don’t attempt to photograph the landscape or city.. just take it all in.

The writer Yi-Fu Tuan made a distinction between space and place that I reference often. Space is abstract, geometric.. it is the distance between two points on a map. Place is what happens when a human being pauses long enough for space to acquire meaning. Place is space plus attention. Place is what emerges when you stop moving and start noticing.

Most of the travel industry sells space. Here is the distance between you and the Amalfi Coast. Here is the route. Here are the stops. Here is the itinerary that will move you efficiently through the geography.

That cannot be optimized. It can only be designed for. And the design looks nothing like what the industry is currently producing.

I consider the word hospitality and how thoroughly it has been gutted. It means, in practice, warm cookies in the lobby and a smooth check-in process. It means the absence of friction. It means comfort, convenience, the feeling of being taken care of in a way that requires nothing of you.

That is service. It is not hospitality.

I have built my entire career around this belief of seeing a person and how they encounter a place. The opening gathering where strangers become known to each other before the first excursion. A poem or a quote read. Moments that aren’t revealed until we’ve arrived, keeping elements of surprise and delight. The final evening designed not as an ending but as an integration, ceremonial.. a space to acknowledge that something happened, that you are not leaving as the same person who arrived. It doesn’t have to be deep or profound to have shifted something inside of you because that is what displacement in a new place does to us.

This isn’t a feature of my journeys. This is the whole philosophy. And it is the thing the bucket list industry cannot replicate, because it requires presence, curiosity, and knowing someone … and sadly travel is often designed to eliminate presence in favor of efficiency and maximizing all there is to do in a short span of time.

Here is what I believe.

I believe travel is not about movement.. it’s about attention. The quality of your attention determines the quality of your experience, and no amount of optimization can substitute for the willingness to be fully where you are.

I believe beauty is not decoration.. it’s information. When a place takes your breath, it is telling you something about yourself: what you are hungry for, what you have been missing, what you are capable of feeling when the noise falls away?

I believe belonging is the great unspoken desire of every traveler. Not the belonging of nationality or passport, but the deeper belonging… it’s the feeling of being claimed by a place and by the people in it. The moment when a stranger becomes known to you and you to them, and the distance between you collapses, you recognize we all bleed red.. we all have a heartbeat and a soul. And for an evening or an afternoon or a single conversation, the loneliness that is the background hum of modern life goes quiet.

I believe the unplanned moment is sacred. That sometimes the most memorable experiences often arrive because we allowed time and room for the unexpected. Leave space for the unplanned.

I believe the travel industry needs a sort of reformation. Not a disruption necessarily rather a return to the original questions: What is travel actually for? Why are we traveling?

I have been thinking about this for a long time. It started as an instinct, a feeling while standing in line for the 100th time being herded into the Colosseum.. or maybe it was The Louvre while watching hordes of people crushing into to see the Mona Lisa that something was being missed. That the beautiful places were doing their work, but the structure around them was blocking the signal. People were moving through landscapes that could have cracked them open, if only someone had slowed them down long enough.

Over the years the instinct became a philosophy and now that philosophy became a practice. And the practice became this: I design journeys that treat travelers as people with unspoken questions and life experiences bringing them to me, not consumers. I build in the silence and margin. I ask the questions. I create the conditions for encounter with place, with others, with the parts of yourself that only emerge when you are far from home and the usual distractions have fallen away.

A few years after that first summer afternoon, I brought a group to Kirby Hall.

Twelve people. They had signed up for a journey to a county - Northamptonshire - in the heart of the English countryside that appears on no one’s bucket list. There aren’t even guidebooks to the area. Trust me, I’ve never found one. Most of them could not have found Northamptonshire on a map before they booked. They came because they trusted the premise of what I’d created: a week spent in an unfamous place, unhurried and undirected, might give them something the famous places no longer could.

We crossed the cattle gate. We walked the chestnut drive. We passed through the small gift shop, greeted by the indifferent peacocks, and crossed the threshold into those open storied rooms. And then I did what I’d dreamt of doing:

I let them go.

No plaques. No scripted narrative. No marching them through in a tight group with dates and names. Just the bare bones of the story, who had lived here and what had been lost and then the permission to wander. To sit in a ruined hall and imagine the candlelight. To stand at a grand window bays and see, for themselves, the faint imprint of the avenue that once was.

I watched them disperse across the property the way my children had dispersed years earlier. I watched grown adults stop and tilt their heads at a window. I watched someone run their hand along a stone wall and peer into darkened spaces. I watched as one woman wander off along, sat under a chestnut tree, looking out towards the countryside taking it all in.

That was the moment. That was the entire thesis of everything I had been trying to build, enacted in front of me by strangers who had trusted me enough to come. They were not consuming the place. They were being found by it.. and they were the inhabitants of their own imagination, the authors of their own encounter, the restored protagonists of a travel experience that had finally given them back to themselves.

It is still, to this day, the best moment of my professional life.

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I grew up in middle Tennessee, in a house on a hill where my bedroom looked out over a valley surrounded by rolling hills. Spring mornings arrived subtly. Early light would slip over the ridgeline, as if it were careful not to wake the world too abruptly. Fog gathered low, settled into the folds of the land like a blanket. Dogwoods bloomed white and redbuds bloomed pink against the lush verdant green, and the light would come in pale and golden and so impossibly soft. I loved those mornings.

I did not have the language for why the fog made me so alert inside. I only knew that it made the familiar feel briefly foreign, and that the foreign felt like a kind of invitation. Somewhere in me, as a young girl peering out the glass of her childhood bedroom, I wondered if this is what England looked like.

That might sound like a strange leap. Valley to country. Tennessee bedroom to the English Countryside. It’s not a place I’d ever been nor had I grown up ever hearing about it. Yet it was a question that lived within me. It was not a logical thought so much as a felt one, a recognition without evidence. The fog seemed to offer a visual grammar I had already encountered somewhere, in books, in films and in pictures, even if I could not explain where. When I read The Secret Garden for the first time, the cover already separating from the pages, I found the scene where Mary Lennox crosses the Yorkshire moor at night, the land stretching out like a dark sea on either side of the carriage road, and she asks Mrs. Medlock, “What is a moor?” That question lived in me. I did not know what a moor was either, but I felt certain I had seen one, that the fog in my valley and the fog on Burnett’s moor were somehow the same fog, that they rose from the same underground river of feeling. When Mary finally pushes open the door to the secret garden and stands with her back against it, breathing fast with excitement and wonder, I understood that too. Not because I had found such a place. Because I was looking for one.

So I began doing what children do when they sense a door. I built a private mythology around it.

Later I would write in my journal describing an English farm cottage in the countryside where I might one day live. It was made of stone and a garden that went all the way to a hedgerow. There were wellies by the entrance and a kettle that was always warm. And of course a fireplace surrounded by books. The rooms were small and the ceilings were low and the light came through windows that were slightly warped with age. I wrote as if I had already been there, as if my body knew the slope of the lane and the shape of the garden gate. I furnished this cottage the way you furnish a prayer: carefully, desperately, with absolute conviction that the act of imagining it was bringing it closer to being real.

I got lost in bookstores. A pastime that I continue to this day. Not in the way people say it casually, as a weekend indulgence. I mean I disappeared. I would find the travel section and pull down every book about English villages, about the Cotswolds, about Devon and Dorset and the Lake District, and I would sit on the floor, in corner and turn pages until my parents came looking. I was not planning a trip. I was memorizing a country. An atmosphere. I was teaching myself the names of hedgerow flowers and the difference between a footpath and a bridleway. I was studying a landscape the way you study a face you love before you have ever seen it in person.

Before there was Pinterest, before mood boards became something you made on a screen; I made mine with scissors. I cut photographs from British magazines: a thatched roof in the Cotswolds, a pub with leaded windows, a stone bridge over a stream, windows glowing honey at dusk. I taped them inside blank sketch books. It was too private to share, too strange to explain. How do you tell someone you are homesick for a place you have never been? How do you say, without sounding unhinged, that the rolling green hills in a photograph of Wiltshire feel more like home than the town where you were born?

The older I got, the more I understood that I was practicing a form of devotion. Not to a place I had seen with my own eyes, but to a place I had already started living inside. I had no idea the future to unfold before me.

Other languages have words that circle this feeling from different angles. The Welsh call it hiraeth, a longing for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was. It is not merely homesickness. It is the ache for a belonging that lives outside of time, outside of geography, in some country of the heart that you can feel but never quite reach. The Germans call it Sehnsucht, an intimate, painful longing for something distant or unattainable, and it runs through their Romantic poetry like a vein of gold, embodied by Novalis’s blue flower, dreamed of but never found. There is another German word, Fernweh, that is even more precise: a far-ache, a distance-soreness. It is the opposite of homesickness. It is the longing for a faraway place you have never visited, the sense that elsewhere is not just interesting but necessary. That was the word I needed at twelve, peering out my bedroom window, watching the Tennessee fog and imagining England.

English sometimes leaves this particular ache in the unsorted pile. English gives us wanderlust, and that is close, but wanderlust can sound jaunty, like a poster in an airport shop. What I am describing has weight. It has persistence. It has a kind of tenderness that does not always feel fun.

C.S. Lewis understood this better than anyone. In “The Weight of Glory,” preached at Oxford’s Church of St Mary the Virgin in 1941, he describes a desire that most of us try to dismiss, calling it nostalgia or romanticism or adolescence, anything to make it smaller than it is. But Lewis insists the desire is the truest thing about us. The beauty we encounter, he argues, is not the thing we are longing for. It is only the scent of a flower we have not found, the echo of a tune we have not heard, news from a country we have never yet visited. He believed this homesickness was not confusion but evidence, the way hunger is evidence that food exists. In Surprised by Joy, he recalls the piercing experience of reading Norse mythology as a boy and feeling, almost like heartbreak, the memory of something he could only call Joy: the sensation that he was returning at last from exile to his own country.

Aside from the Chronicles of Narnia… I did not read Lewis until I was older, but when I did, I felt the shock of recognition that comes when someone names an experience you thought was yours alone. That was precisely what the fog had been doing all those mornings. Delivering news from a country I had never visited

It was the same shock I felt reading Rebecca. The unnamed narrator dreams she has returned to Manderley, the great house on the Cornish coast, passing like a spirit through the iron gate. But Manderley is gone. It exists only in sleep and memory and longing. What undid me about that novel was not the mystery or the gothic dread but the way du Maurier made a place the center of everything.

Manderley is the true protagonist of Rebecca. It is loved with a ferocity that no human character in the book can match. Even in exile, the narrator clings to its sensory details with aching precision: the library at half past four, the crumpets by the fire, the crushed petals holding the essence of a thousand scents in the hollow of a hand. Du Maurier herself seemed to know this kind of attachment from the inside. She arrived at Fowey, Cornwall as a young woman and felt something she later described as the freedom she had desired, long sought for, not yet known. She spent years drawn to Menabilly, a secluded estate that would become the inspiration for Manderley, before she was finally able to live there. Her son once said she always believed places were more important than people. Reading Rebecca at sixteen, sitting on a porch in Tennessee, I thought: yes. That is exactly right.

But du Maurier also understood that a powerful bond with place is not automatically safe. Sometimes what feels like recognition is projection, hunger, self-erasure. Sometimes the place you think will save you is the stage on which your deepest anxieties perform. The narrator of Rebecca loves Manderley, but Manderley nearly destroys her.

Evelyn Waugh explores the same tension in different clothes. In Brideshead Revisited, Charles Ryder describes his young self searching for something he can only name in borrowed imagery: a low door in the wall, which others had found before him, that opened on an enclosed and enchanted garden. When Sebastian drives him to Brideshead for the first time, they picnic on a sheep-cropped hill under a clump of elms, eating strawberries and drinking wine, and Sebastian says the line that breaks the novel open: “If it could only be like this always, always summer, always alone, the fruit always ripe.” Charles calls that summer an aesthetic education. He believes himself very near heaven during those languid days. But the novel’s genius is its frame. By the time Charles returns during the war, the fountain at the estate’s center is dry, filled with cigarette ends. A door has shut, he says, the low door in the wall. He has left behind illusion. He lives now in a world of three dimensions. Then the devastating correction: he has since learned there is no such world.'

I think about that correction often. The world of three dimensions, the purely rational world where longing is just a chemical accident and a fog-filled valley in Tennessee is just weather, has never been the world I live in. Something in me has always insisted that places carry meaning, that the pull I felt toward England was not fantasy but correspondence, not escapism but recognition.

Ursula K. Le Guin explored this conviction in The Beginning Place, a quiet novel about two unhappy young people who discover a gateway to a twilight country that feels, as Le Guin writes, profoundly strange and familiar. It is the silence that gives words meaning, the center that gives the world a shape. Irena, one of the travelers, calls it the “ain country,” borrowing a Scots word that means “own.” Not because she has earned it or inherited it. Because she recognizes it. The word sounds foreign but means home.

What I love about Le Guin’s novel is its refusal of easy resolution. Her characters do not stay in the twilight country. They discover that the place they truly belong is one of their joint making, in the difficult, ordinary, real world. The imaginary home is not a destination but a necessary passage, a door you walk through to become the person who can live fully in the actual landscape of your life. I think of my journal, the magazine clippings, the dream cottage with its garden. Those were not delusions. They were a necessary passage. They were teaching me how to arrive.'

Literature has always understood what the rational mind resists: sometimes you do not choose a place. Sometimes a place chooses you.

In Esther Freud’s The Sea House, the Suffolk coast becomes a sentient presence that outlasts every human story played out along its marshes and dunes. An architecture student named Lily comes to a fictionalized village to study its buildings, and slowly the landscape begins to reveal what is missing in her own life. She senses an absence that cannot be filled by simply going home. The sea is always battling the shore in that novel. The pink stone and the enormous sky persist while people arrive and love and grieve and leave. Freud writes landscape so precisely that it becomes a kind of character study: a portrait not of a person but of a place, of how the land holds what we cannot carry ourselves.

Tim Winton does something even more radical in Cloudstreet. The house at Number One Cloud Street breathes. It sighs. It grinds on its stumps like a ship at anchor. Two broken families are delivered to it by fate, and over twenty years the house heals itself through them, or heals them through itself. Characters run away but feel called back. A woman refuses to sleep inside for years, sensing something unresolved in the walls. Only after a birth in the library, after the spirits that haunt the place are finally released, does she take down her tent and come in. Winton’s house is not a metaphor for home. It is home as a living, choosing agent. It calls people to it. It decides when they are ready to belong.

In a book that has forever stayed with me, Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s One Hundred Years of Solitude, the town of Macondo begins not as a physical settlement but as a dream. Jose Arcadio Buendia, fleeing a ghost, dreams of a noisy city with houses of mirror walls. He asks for its name and receives a word that has no meaning at all but carries what Marquez calls a supernatural echo. He founds the town at the place where he dreamed it. The opening pages describe a world so new that many things still lacked names, and in order to indicate them it was necessary to point. Macondo is paradise for a while. No one has died there yet. But it is always already being lost. Characters are described as living between two nostalgias facing each other like mirrors, and by the end the town of mirrors has become a town of mirages. Marquez understood that the places we long for exist most powerfully in the imagination, and that the real version is always both more and less than the dream.

I live in England now. The English Countryside in the heart of England.

I write that sentence and feel the strangeness of it, the way you feel strange when a prayer you forgot you were praying gets answered in a language you did not expect. I live 90 miles directly north from London in a small hamlet in the English countryside, and the hedgerows are real, and the footpaths are real, and the light through the warped windowpanes is exactly as soft and ancient as I imagined it would be. The kettle is warm and always on. The garden goes to the hedge. I walk lanes so narrow that the branches meet overhead, and I pick blackberries in September, I know when the rosehips ripped and the snowdrops first appear in the wood and I sit in pubs with fires burning in grates that have held fires for three hundred years.

The cottage on my mood board exists. I am inside it.

But here is the thing that nobody tells you about getting the place you longed for.

Lewis was right that the longing is real, that it points to something true. He was also right that the beauty we encounter is never quite the thing itself. Because now, on certain mornings, when the English fog settles into the valley outside my window, I feel it again. That old pull. That ache. Only now it faces the other direction. Now I am homesick for Tennessee. For the dogwoods blooming white against the rolling hills. For the particular way the fog pools in the pastures of Williamson County. For the heat that rises from the pavement in July and the sound of cicadas in the maple trees and the quality of light at dusk that makes everything look dazzling and saturated.

I have traded one longing for another, and I am beginning to understand that this is not a failure of arrival. It is the human condition.

The Welsh knew this all along. Hiraeth is not homesickness for a place you can return to. It is the ache for a belonging that lives outside of time, for a home that is always partly behind you and partly ahead of you and never fully where you stand. Mary Lennox found her garden but never stopped being the girl from India who asked, “What is a moor?” The narrator of Rebecca lost Manderley but held its crushed petals in memory forever. Charles Ryder learned that the enchanted garden behind the low door in the wall was never quite behind him and never quite ahead. Le Guin’s travelers discovered their ain country not in the twilight realm but in the harder, braver act of making a life together in the real world. Even Macondo, that paradise conjured from a dream, was always dissolving back into the dream from which it came.

I think now that the fog in Tennessee and the fog in England were always the same fog. That the girl peering out at childhood bedroom window was not wrong to feel she belonged to a country she had never seen. She was practicing a form of devotion, building a private mythology, assembling a home out of pages and pictures and the particular quality of spring light in a valley that seemed to hold its own weather. The devotion was real. The mythology was pointing somewhere.

But the longing was never going to be resolved by arrival. It was going to be deepened by it. To live in the place you dreamed of is to discover that the dream was not about the place at all. It was about the quality of attention. The willingness to press your face to the glass and believe that the fog has something to say to you, that the land is not indifferent, that somewhere in the world there is a door in a wall covered with ivy and behind it a garden that has been waiting. Not for anyone. For you.

Some longings are not puzzles meant to be solved. They are signals. They point. They disclose what you are capable of loving.

The early morning light from my farm cottage window was simmering and radiant. Long shadows stretched across the pastures towards a new day. I am at the window again, in a different country, in a different life, still listening. Still believing the morning light has something to tell me that I have not yet fully heard.

What place are you homesick for that you’ve yet to go.. but know in your bones you will?

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When I was young, my dad would pull the maps from the monthly National Geographic and tape them on the back of the kitchen door. Over dinner, occasionally he’d ask us questions about the current map, had we been studying? Or rather what did we notice? The map changed monthly, but the ritual held for many years.

Somewhere in that kitchen, I learned that the world was both knowable and vast, that it could be pinned to a door and yet remain mysterious.

I kept two of those maps. One was of Europe before 1990. Germany still divided, the USSR intact, Czechoslovakia and Yugoslavia still existed. Borders drawn by treaties that would soon dissolve. I would trace routes with my finger: the journey I would one day take across that continent, through countries that existed only on that paper. Before any memories were attached to city names.

The other map I kept was of the Moon.

I don’t remember much about it now… only one thing, really. One name.

The Sea of Tranquility.

Even as a young girl, that phrase stopped me. It sounded emotional rather than scientific. As if someone had gone looking for a landscape and instead found a feeling.

Years later in my middle school science class I learned that this wasn’t unusual. Not on the Moon, anyway. The Moon’s dark plains, the maria, were named using language that sounds like inner life: seas of storms and clouds, yes, but also seas of serenity and tranquility. And the Sea of Tranquility is not a modern nickname. It’s old. It comes out of seventeenth-century astronomy, apparently codified in 1651, when lunar cartographers like Giovanni Battista Riccioli and Francesco Maria Grimaldi set down the naming system that still shapes how the Moon is labeled.

I think of that often when I look at the Moon and what it meant to name a place for stillness and of peace, for the absence of turbulence. Wondering what the astronomers saw in those dark plains that made them reach for feeling rather than fact.

Along the periphery of the Sea of Tranquility lie bays named Sinus Amoris, the Bay of Love. Sinus Concordiae, the Bay of Harmony. Sinus Honoris, the Bay of Honor.

The Moon, it turns out, is mapped in the language of the heart.

I love that… the idea that we were giving emotional names to places in the sky at almost the exact same moment we were starting to map the invisible terrain inside ourselves. Because a few years after the Sea of Tranquility becomes official lunar geography, another map shows up in Paris that does something even stranger.

It turns tenderness into a country.

The Carte de Tendre

In Tender Maps, Alice Maddicott sets the scene “It is the seventeenth century. Imagine a room. There are no men present. A drawing room or parlor no doubt filled with books and ornaments from across the newly discovered world. There is a large table and on it a piece of paper. The women are standing around, leaning forward.

They have ink. They are mapping.

The ink moves quickly. These women are not decorating an idea. They are making one. They need homes, and the shapes they have chosen resemble places. Houses, mountains, rivers and sea. There is something for everyone in a landscape.

They are creating a Carte de Tendre… a Map of Tenderness.”

Madeleine de Scudéry (1607–1701), known as “Sapho” to her circle, was the most celebrated woman of letters in seventeenth-century France. She never married, having chosen each time, as she wrote, “freedom and amitié tendre” to mean a loving friendship. From her residence in the Marais district, she hosted the Société du Samedi, Saturday gatherings where aristocrats, poets, and thinkers debated the nature of love and friendship. This was a collaborative intellectual and creative space for women before fashionable men caught on.

In my research to uncover the motivation behind Scudéry’s Map of Tenderness, I uncovered a brilliant woman who lived a harrowing life. Scudéry was six when both her parents died. Raised by an uncle who also died, she followed her brother to Paris and built a life from friendship, her chosen family. Her legacy would include the formation of the Saturday salon, the longest novel ever written, a reputation as the finest conversationalist in France. Tragically in 1666, she began to go deaf. The woman who had made her name through talk would spend the last forty years of her life in silence, publishing volume after volume of “Conversations” extracted from her old novels; archiving the talk she could no longer have. Her story deserves more space than I can give it here. But this much matters: the Carte de Tendre was not a parlor game. It was the concept of a woman who had lost everyone teaching her friends how to find their way to each other and name what they kept contained within themselves.

What exactly was the Carte de Tendre? In her novel Clélie, a question arises: how does one travel from New Friendship to Tenderness? The answer was a map. Not a physical guide to an imaginary world, but a depiction of the emotional journey in the form of a landscape. This was a new way of mapping the world through how they felt. Topography as vessel and keeper of secrets.

Distance was measured in lieues d’amitié… leagues of friendship.

The geography is precise. The journey begins at New Friendship. Three routes diverge toward three cities, all named Tendre. One through villages of wit and sincerity, one through attentiveness and small acts, one by river. The River Inclination is fastest, requiring no guidance, but it empties into the Dangerous Sea, beyond which lie the Unknown Lands of ungoverned passion. Stray from any path and you drift toward Lukewarmness, Forgetfulness, the Lake of Indifference… that pale, marooned place where feeling goes to die. Or worse: toward Perfidy and Wickedness, arriving at the Sea of Enmity, where all vessels are wrecked

There is no set route. Like old maps of the earth, depicted as if it were flat, we could wander off the edge.

What made this revolutionary was not only its ingenuity but its politics. Marriage is entirely absent from the land of Tendre. Scudéry considered it a tyrannical institution. The map proposed a private emotional life outside marriage, founded on mutual respect and reasoned affection. Where most later maps of tenderness were of islands or had borders, hers spills over, leaves land undiscovered. It leaves room for subjectivity, as true experience of place does.

And hers was collaborative. The ink moves quickly. These women are not decorating an idea. They are making one.. pouring in their experiences, naming their vulnerabilities, writing it down. Finding a place outside of their minds and bodies. I can’t help but wonder if this felt rebellious, liberating, affirming, or all of the above. How did they leave these Saturday gatherings? A little more free. Seen. Known.

It is personal. And by locating it in place, we are claiming a bit of the world for the unseen.

The Lineage

The Carte de Tendre wasn’t a one-off curiosity. It kept reappearing.. in satirical newspapers, in Surrealist journals, in city maps drawn by Situationists who cut Paris into fragments and reconnected it with arrows of desire and dread. The tradition mutated across centuries.

And then, in 1958, it shows up in cinema.

Louis Malle’s Les Amants opens with the Carte de Tendre filling the screen.. it’s a story about erotic awakening that begin inside an older geography of feeling. A seventeenth-century salon map becomes the literal backdrop for twentieth-century desire. I find that fascinating!

Which makes me wonder if the map’s deeper claim is simply this: we keep needing maps for what we cannot prove. We keep needing names for what we keep living through.

Because tenderness isn’t a single destination, is it?

It’s a practice.. it some way it is set of small actions. A way of staying oriented toward another person, the way a traveler stays oriented toward a horizon.

Atlas of Emotions

That’s why the therapeutic afterlives of the map make so much sense to me.

Narrative therapy uses “maps” to help people navigate identity. Michael White, who developed this approach, describes a “lifelong fascination for maps” and treats the consultation as a journey whose routes cannot be predetermined. The client and therapist together construct what White calls “landscapes of identity”: maps of meaning, not geography, charting how a person has come to understand themselves and how that understanding might be revised.

This takes me back to a memory. Early in my (trauma therapy) journey into EMDR, my therapist pulled out a giant white poster board and a handful of markers. I was to draw a map of my inner emotional landscape. Maybe I wasn't in a seventeenth-century Parisian parlor just a cozy cottage turned therapist's office and a woman asking tender, careful questions. But the task was the same one Scudéry had set for herself three hundred years earlier: to give shape to the terrain of feeling, to name what had been nameless, to see where the dangerous seas were and where the roads might lead.

Grief researchers talk about mapping grief: how mourning attaches to certain streets, objects, anniversaries, return journeys. The geographer Avril Maddrell proposes this as a conceptual framework for understanding bereavement’s spatial dimensions. The park bench where you sat together. The corner shop you cannot enter. The doorway that still expects them. Grief, it turns out, is as much about place as it is about time.

Tenderness as practice. Tenderness as attention.

Grief researchers talk about mapping grief .. how mourning attaches to certain streets, objects, anniversaries, return journeys. The restaurant table where you sat together. The doorway that still expects them. Grief can be as much about place as it is about time.

And emotion scientists build interactive “atlases” of feeling. The Atlas of Emotions presents emotions as continents: anger, fear, sadness, disgust, enjoyment; framed as a way to navigate a mind toward calm. The project roots itself in a request by the Dalai Lama who said: “When we wanted to get to the new world, we needed a map to get there. Will you make a map of the emotions so we can get to a calm state of mind more readily?”

What began in a Parisian salon, four centuries later becomes a tool for grief work, therapy, and the navigation of inner life. This is what I keep circling: the idea that maps are not only about where you are, but about how you move. And that tenderness is a way of moving through the world.

The Poetics of Space

Two concepts provide sturdy beams for this understanding.

The first is topoanalysis. Gaston Bachelard proposes, in The Poetics of Space, a psychological study of intimate places (especially the house) as an inner geography. His memorable formulation: “inhabited space transcends geometrical space.” The rooms we have lived in and the thresholds we have crossed… these are not merely locations. They are containers of memory, shapers of self. We do not simply pass through space. We dwell in it, and it dwells in us.

The second is Topophilia. Yi-Fu Tuan defines it as “the affective bond between people and place or setting.” And then he notes something crucial: topophilia is “not the strongest of human emotions.” This is exactly why it can be easy to miss because it is conveyed as subtle, ambient, even foundational. We do not fall in love with places the way we fall in love with people. We accumulate attachment slowly, through repetition, through presence, through the small acts of attention that Scudéry mapped as the road to Tendre.

But there’s a shadow to this bond. The philosopher Glenn Albrecht coined the term “solastalgia” to describe the distress we feel when a beloved place changes while we’re still in it. Unlike nostalgia, a longing for somewhere we’ve left, solastalgia is the grief of staying put and watching the familiar become unrecognizable. A mourning for a place that remains but is no longer the same.

I feel this deeply when I consider how much my hometown of Nashville has changed. I feel it when a coffeehouse disappears beneath glass and steel, when a city keeps its name but not its face. There is a startling line in a Chris Stapleton song: “Nashville… you tore down my memories."

Tenderness is not only interpersonal. It’s also the way a neighborhood holds us, the way a childhood kitchen door holds a world, the way a name like Tranquility holds a memory. And sometimes it’s the grief we carry when the map no longer matches the territory… not because we’ve traveled, but because the landscape itself has shifted before our eyes.

When I look back at my dad taping maps to the kitchen door, I see now what he was doing, without ever saying it. Putting a map where we’d have to look at it every day. Asking questions. Inviting us into the world. Teaching us that life is bigger than whatever story we’re currently living inside.

Maybe that wasn’t his intention and maybe I’m reading too much into the acts of a man who simply loved geography.. and who is endlessly curious. But this is what I took from those maps:

That a small ritual quite possibly changed the course of my life.

That a map of Europe taught me that dreams can become lived reality. That two-dimensional paper on the back of my bedroom door can unfold into decades of actual roads, actual villages, actual faces. I travel Europe for a living now. The borders I once traced with a finger have become places where I’ve stood in the snow or sunshine, waited for trains, played guitar in piazzas, shared meals with strangers who became friends. The map is no longer something I look at. It’s something I’ve walked through.

The map of the Moon taught me something more subtle: that even scientific naming can be emotional and humans look at a landscape and reach for a feeling to hold it.

And the Carte de Tendre teaches me something I’m still learning: that tenderness is not a vague hope or a gentle emotion. It’s a route. Or maybe more importantly, it’s a warning: not to drift into indifference by accident. And an insistence that the inner life deserves the same careful naming we give to rivers and seas.

There’s a quote from C. S. Lewis that confronts my desire to romanticize emotional cartography. He writes in A Grief Observed that he tried to make a map of sorrow, then realized grief isn’t a state but a process, something that “needs not a map but a history.”

“I thought I could describe a state; make a map of sorrow. Sorrow, however, turns out to be not a state but a process. It needs not a map but a history, and if I don’t stop writing that history at some quite arbitrary point, there’s no reason why I should ever stop. There is something new to be chronicled every day. Grief is like a long valley, a winding valley where any bend may reveal a totally new landscape.”

Maybe the act of mapping: naming what matters, noticing where you wander, building language for the terrain changes the way you travel. Maybe that’s the real reason these maps keep coming back not as something accurate but because they’re a form of belonging.

I contemplate if places are like this.. shifting, felt, impossible to hold ..then how can we map them?

And still we keep trying.

I trace routes still, on paper maps and on foot. I plan journeys to places that may not exist in the same form by the time I arrive.

And sometimes, when the Moon is full, I look up and imagine the Sea of Tranquility, that dark plain named for stillness, and I think: we have always done this. We have always looked at what we cannot reach and named it for what we hope to feel there.

The first cartographers of feeling knew what the rest of us are still learning: that tenderness is direction of travel. That the map is made by walking it and home - as Bashō understood - is not the place you leave or the place you arrive, but indeed the journey itself.

In 1969, when Neil Armstrong stepped onto the basalt plain of the Sea of Tranquility, he named the landing site Tranquility Base as if emotion could become address, as if feeling could be where you live. What I find interesting: the name was not planned. It came to him in the moment, a gesture of tender mapping four centuries after Scudéry, three centuries after Riccioli. The impulse persists: to locate ourselves in feeling, to make place of what moves us.

Dear beautiful, strange, dangerous, glorious, dark, wonderful, brutal, gentle wide world.

You are my one true romance. And I'm still mapping.

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Welcome - I’m Kyle, the soul behind Sudden Journeys. I’m a writer, photographer, and founder of Sudden Journeys. I’ve spent the last few decades exploring: guiding travelers, leading tours, living abroad, and paying close attention to what landscapes, rooms, and encounters awaken in us. I write about place and belonging, hospitality and gathering, the practice of attention through journaling, and the home life between departures. Originally from a small town south of Nashville; I divide my time between the English countryside, London, and wherever the road takes me next.

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There is something quietly powerful about meeting in a place that belongs to neither of you, or perhaps belongs to one of you in a particular season. You wander unfamiliar streets. You talk about who you were and who you are becoming. You stay up too late. You see the city through fresh eyes. Even a simple dinner after years apart can feel like time folding in on itself, as if no distance has passed at all.

For someone who travels often alone or while leading groups, traveling with a friend feels like an indulgence. For many, it may be ordinary. For me, it feels rare. And it has reminded me of something I do not want to forget: traveling with a friend is not just about the destination. It is a deepening of a cherished bond, and a quiet gratitude for the friendships that have carried us across seasons, cities, and years

.The Benefits of Traveling With Friends

Seeing a Place Through Another’s Eyes

No matter how long I’ve known a city, it becomes new when I see it through a friend’s first encounter. Watching Sean step into London for the first time, or Rebecca wander Athens with fresh curiosity, reinvigorates my love and appreciation for a place. It keeps me from taking these places for granted. When you travel with someone, you inherit their lens. The experience becomes layered.. not just what you see, but what they see. It widens you. And research confirms what we already know in our bones: supportive friendships deepen well-being. What moves me most is the practice of savoring together and naming the moment out loud. “Look at this light.” “I’m so glad we’re here.” Savoring isn’t sentimental. It anchors memory. It binds the experience to the relationship.

The Gift of Mutual Support

Travel makes us vulnerable. We are outside our routines, outside our certainty, sometimes outside our language. With the right friend, that vulnerability becomes steadying rather than destabilizing. You process in real time. You laugh (and maybe cry) at the missed train. You share hard news over late-night dinners. Studies even show that when we share something difficult with a supportive friend, our stress responses regulate more easily. Lord knows I have had a lot of these moments lately. Not all companionship does that. Travel reveals the difference. It shows you who can hold space when you are tired, uncertain, or undone. And that knowing, that kind of clarity is its own special gift. It is invaluable.

The Practical Beauty of It

Yes, there are practical benefits. You split the accommodation, share the car, ease the cost of something lovelier than you might book alone. Decisions feel lighter when they’re shared. Planning becomes collaborative rather than burdensome. But the deeper practicality is emotional. Shared decision-making builds trust. Compromise builds generosity. Navigating small inconveniences together like a delayed flight, a change of plans becomes rehearsal for larger moments in life. Traveling with a friend isn’t just about where you go. It’s about learning how to move through the world alongside one another.

A Few Hard-Earned Lessons

Traveling with friends can be glorious. It can also unravel quickly if you are not careful. Here is what I have learned from a lifetime of traveling with people, both personally and from watching countless friendships travel together on my tours:

Communicate early and clearly.
Say what matters to you. “I really want to see the market Sunday morning.”
Say what doesn’t. “I’m not into late nights for music, but I’d love dinner together first.” If you feel unsafe or uncomfortable, speak up. Boundaries build respect.

Don’t overbook.
Leave white space in the itinerary. Magic rarely happens in a tightly scheduled hour. Leave space for being spontaneous or to simply rest, just be in the moment. Maybe you’re enjoying a conversation over dinner for 3 hours.. allow for it.

Be an active participant.
Even if one friend is “the planner” (often me), everyone should contribute. Decision fatigue is real. Shared planning creates shared ownership. It is also a fabulous time to do things that maybe scare you a little or make you slightly uncomfortable. I am an introvert by nature. I never want to be the center of attention yet the amount of times I’ve pulled friends to sing their first karaoke in foreigns is more than I can count. These make for the best memories.

Stay flexible.
You may find yourself at a museum you wouldn’t have chosen. Or skipping one you would have. Let curiosity lead you occasionally.

Give each other space.
You do not need to do everything together. Go for a solo walk. Read in a café. Wander a museum alone. Maybe spend a day or half day each doing what you want. Personal space protects affection.

Name the good.
At the end of the day, ask: “What was your favorite part?”, ‘What was your highlight for the day?” Look at photos together on the journey home. Memory strengthens when shared.

The Deeper Invitation

What surprised me most these past months was not just how much I enjoyed traveling with friends but how rare it felt.

My life is movement. Airports. Trains. Leading groups. Writing alone in hotel rooms. I am content in solitude. Maybe too much. But there is something profoundly human about turning to someone beside you when the cathedral ceiling catches light and seeing awe reflected back. Or delight in listening to the pedal steel at a honky tonk for the first time. Or savoring that first taste of moussaka.

Travel with friends increases courage. It widens perspective. It softens edges. It reminds you that you are known, seen and loved for who you are now. And perhaps most importantly, it reminds you that you are not walking the world alone. I know I need this reminder often.

If you have a friend you have not traveled with yet maybe consider this your nudge. Invite them. Book the ticket. Meet somewhere halfway across the world. Discover somewhere new.

Or join one of my tours together hint hint ;)

And when you find yourselves standing together in a place neither of you fully understands, look at them and say:

“I’m so glad we’re here.”

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Hello there! I’m Kyle, the soul behind Sudden Journeys. I’m a writer, photographer, and founder of Sudden Journeys. I’ve spent the last few decades exploring: guiding travelers, leading tours, living abroad, and paying close attention to what landscapes, rooms, and encounters awaken in us. I write about place and belonging, hospitality and gathering, the practice of attention through journaling, and the home life between departures. Originally from a small town south of Nashville; I divide my time between the English countryside, London, and wherever the road takes me next.

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The kind of pull that doesn’t feel like a choice

Early May 2024, I’m staying at a gorgeous farmhouse on the edge of a loch and the highlands near Ft Williams, Scotland with my parents and sister.

It’s still dark when my dad and I slip out of the house and into the car. I almost didn’t get up. The bed was warm, comfortable and the dark, cold was unwelcome.

We leave at twilight, drive east deeper into the Scottish Highlands. Though sleepy, the anticipation in me isn’t subtle. It’s physical. My heartbeat picks up, like my body knows the road before my mind does.

Somewhere in that familiar-to-me-now ritual, I cue Pink Floyd and hit play on The Dark Side of the Moon album. I tell my dad, it’s part of the approach… one of the ways I ready myself to arrive.

Then the munros start to show themselves. First as presence. Then as form. And I do what I always do: windows down as soon as the high ground appears. Cold air. Big expansive sky before me.

When we finally reach Glencoe for sunrise, it doesn’t disappoint. We stop just past The Meeting of Three Waters and get out. We are the only ones here. The only ones! I can’t believe it. Not a car in sight. Not another soul around.

As if God cued the spectacle just for us, the colors turn. I am not only overcome. I am overwhelmed. The landscape is too much. It devastates me. In the best way. First the deep indigo blue and warm purple. Then cue the orange and red and pink. And finally as if it can’t get better, brilliant rays of shimmering yellow.

I’m standing there alone with my dad in a landscape that feels like it’s been waiting for us. The land of my maternal ancestors, at least in the way story and blood and memory thread themselves into a person. And also, unmistakably, the landscape we stand on carries trauma: the site of an infamous massacre in 1692 later judged “murder under trust,” a betrayal made worse because hospitality had been accepted.

That layering does something to me.

Beauty alone could have moved me. But beauty plus grief, beauty plus history, beauty plus being there to share it with my dad… and beauty plus the knowledge that humans can desecrate even the most sublime places. This is what breaks the surface of my composure.

I cry. Streaming down my face.

In that moment what rises in me isn’t just emotion. It’s worship. Praise. A desire to name God out loud, because the landscape makes me feel small in a way that doesn’t diminish me… in anything, it returns me to what matters.

The strange part is: it doesn’t end when I leave. It never does. You know. If you’ve been. I know you know. It leaves you aching. Wanting more.

Long after I’m gone, the ache remains. A pull to return that doesn’t feel like preference. It feels like being called.

The call arrives through the body

Most travel stories begin with desire: I wanted to go.
This begins somewhere else: something called me.

And when it happens, it rarely arrives as a neat sentence. A sudden, persistent “there” that doesn’t make sense on paper. If you’ve felt it, you know how strangely physical it is. The way certain places feel like recognition. For me, it’s the rolling hills of my home town, the low country of Savannah, the Blue Ridge Mountains of North Carolina and the way the light hits the Duomo in Florence.

That’s where phenomenology earns its keep.

Phenomenology centers the first-person structure of experience… how things show themselves to us, how meaning comes into view, how consciousness is always “about” something in the world (what philosophers call intentionality).

A landscape that calls you isn’t just sitting “out there,” neutral and waiting. It begins its work long before your feet touch the ground. In anticipation.. in imagination. In the way your chest tightens at a photograph or your pulse shifts when you see the road sign.

You don’t decide to feel it. Your body does.

Phenomenology reminds us that consciousness is never idle. It’s always leaning toward something.. toward a memory.. a future you haven’t stepped into yet. We live oriented. Directed. Reaching.

So when a landscape starts pulling at you months before you arrive, that isn’t fantasy. It’s experience already unfolding. Meaning already forming. The encounter began long before.

This is why I don’t dismiss my own rituals on the road. The music. The timing. The windows down. The way I can feel my throat tighten, my heart beat increase when the Highlands first appear. Those rituals don’t make the experience fake. They make it legible. They give form to something already stirring.

And if I track my own pattern honestly, it’s consistent:

Anticipation isn’t a thought. It’s a quickening.
Belonging isn’t an idea. It’s a loosening in the chest.
Recognition isn’t a conclusion. It’s a sensation of “yes” before language catches up.

Phenomenology would say: stay close to that. Don’t rush past it. Don’t over-explain it away. Describe it as it is lived… because that’s where the meaning actually shows up.

What phenomenology gives a traveler

Phenomenology doesn’t ask, “Is the feeling true?” It asks, “What is the feeling like, in detail?”

That shift matters, because landscapes don’t reach us as facts. They reach us as lived atmospheres: wind against your cheek, a smell you can’t name, the way your body relaxes (or doesn’t) when you step off a train. The meaning of a place isn’t only visual. It’s tactile. It’s rhythmic. It’s built out of perception, memory, anticipation… and often times all stacked at once.

If you’re trying to write about belonging through travel, phenomenology offers a tenderness: stay close to what is actually there in your experience. Don’t rush past the sensory data. Don’t over-explain it. Let the place appear.

When space turns into place

There’s a line from Yi-Fu Tuan that I return to again and again: if we think of space as what allows movement, then place is pause. Each pause making it possible for a location to be transformed into place. Space is risk and freedom and wildness. Place is safe and known and contained.

That line has teeth.

Because it explains why some landscapes don’t “take” the first time. Movement alone isn’t intimacy. Passing through isn’t the same thing as arriving. And it explains why my drive through the Scottish Highlands feels like more than travel.

The highway miles are space: motion, momentum, distance closing. The first sight of the Highlands shifts the quality of the world. And Glencoe.. standing still, tears coming, attention fully tethered.. becomes place. Tuan also gave language to the love-side of this story: topophilia, defined as “the affective bond between people and place.”

I like that definition because it doesn’t pretend the bond is purely rational. It says what we already know, if we’re honest: places can be adored. Places can be missed. Places can be carried. (I can’t wait to share more on how our bones record and carry our geography - place - with us)

And topophilia isn’t only about prettiness. It’s also about value. About what a place comes to hold for you: memory, identity, meaning, even obligation.

So when a landscape calls, it may not be calling you toward spectacle. It may be calling you toward a pause deep enough for experience to have weight. Toward a place where your senses can finally finish a sentence you didn’t know you were speaking.

Recently I stopped in Paris for 48 hours as an interlude on my way home. After a full day of travel from Lake Como via Zurich, I arrived at Gare de Lyon, a station I’ve arrived to for decades now. It was Friday at five. The rush hour current of bodies moving in and out. I followed the stream toward the exit and then that first glimpse of Paris… the Mansard rooftops rising beyond the station. Slate and light. Immediately, my body responded. A settling. A sense of belonging that didn’t require thought. I know this place. And in some comforting way, it knows me.

Joy rose up as I slid into the back of a cab and was carried down the familiar boulevards of the City of Light. Every corner held a memory. It was here, at eighteen, that I first stepped into a world beyond America. What felt foreign then has become something closer to kin, a lifelong companion in my geography of becoming.

The bond that persists after you leave

Environmental psychology gives a sturdier handle for this than “wanderlust” ever could. Place attachment is often defined as “the cognitive-emotional bond that forms between individuals and their important settings.” That hyphen matters. Cognitive-emotional. Not just feelings. Not just thoughts. Both braided. Like mind and body finally agreeing about what matters.

And yes, research on place attachment is still in the process of becoming itself. It’s cross-disciplinary. It has multiple definitions and measures. It’s still refining its frameworks. I find it a fascinating study still in its infancy. What there is still to uncover will be a wonder to excavate.

One of the most useful organizing tools is the tripartite model proposed by Leila Scannell and Robert Gifford: place attachment can be understood through person, psychological process, and place dimensions. That framework helps me name what happened at Glencoe without flattening it:

PERSON
It’s me, yes. But it’s not only “me.” It’s my dad beside me. Family story. Ancestral imagination. It’s the person I was thinking of as I stood there. Spiritual and sacred. I felt the presence of God with me. The part of identity that forms in relationship. (Even when nobody says much.)

PSYCHOLOGICAL PROCESS
Affect: tears, awe, reverence, silence, joy.
Cognition: the knowledge of what happened here, the moral weight of it.
Behavior: the repeated pilgrimage.. the way I return, the way I rehearse the approach, the way the bond changes what I do.

PLACE
Not “place” as a postcard. Place as a layered setting: physical features, scale, atmosphere, and the historical meanings that cling to the ground. This is where trauma changes the texture of attachment.

Glencoe is not neutral ground. It is publicly remembered as a site of violence and betrayal, interpreted explicitly through the language of broken hospitality and “murder under trust.”

And yet I’m attached.

That tension (love enmeshed with grief) isn’t an exception to place attachment. It’s one of the ways place attachment becomes matures. It’s how attachment stops being mere preference and becomes relationship. This is also where culture enters the room and refuses to leave.

Setha M. Low, writing in an edited volume with Irwin Altman, defines place attachment as a symbolic relationship formed as people give culturally shared emotional meanings to a space or piece of land, meanings that shape how individuals and groups understand and relate to the environment.

In other words: even my most private tear isn’t purely private.

It lives inside stories that were already here. Ancestor narratives. National histories. The ethics of hospitality. The way certain places become sacred because suffering happened there. And then there’s the simplest proof that the bond is real: It keeps working after you’re gone.

Maria Lewicka reviews decades of research and arrives at a steady conclusion: despite mobility and globalization, places remain objects of strong attachment. Which means the ache to return isn’t random. It’s what bonds do. They persist.

Two directions of longing: Hiraeth and Fernweh

English is decent at “homesick.” Not great at what kind of homesick.

Welsh gives us Hiraeth: a word that holds grief and longing in the same hand: “grief or sadness after the lost or departed, longing, yearning, nostalgia, wistfulness, homesickness, earnest desire.”

German gives us Fernweh: “Sehnsucht nach der Ferne, nach fernen Ländern” a longing for the far-away, for distant lands. God I love that description. I don’t treat these words like cute souvenirs. I treat them like precision instruments. Because they point in different directions.

Hiraeth turns you back and inward… toward what you miss, what you lost, what might not be recoverable in the way you want.

Fernweh turns you outward… toward distance, toward elsewhere, toward the horizon that keeps tugging.

When the Highlands call me, it’s both.

Hiraeth: a pull toward ancestors, toward old grief, toward a home-shaped absence.
Fernweh: a pull toward wildness, toward scale, toward a landscape that insists my life be larger than the room I’m currently living in.

And that’s why the call doesn’t stop when the trip ends.

It follows you into the ordinary. Into laundry. Into emails. Into grocery stores. Into quiet moments of your day. It isn’t subtle. It can lay claim to your memory and emotions in an instance. Leaving you in a constant state of longing.

A landscape can become part of your inner geography. And once it does, you don’t only visit it. You miss it.

Here’s something I’ve noticed in myself, and maybe you’ll recognize it too: Some journeys don’t feel like escape. They feel like alignment. Like a part of you has been slightly out of place (quietly, politely) until a coastline or a mountain range or the Scottish Highlands or a certain kind of emptiness brings you back into your own body.

It’s not because the place “fixes” you. Instead I believe it allows you to pause long enough to feel what’s been true. You are finally in a moment away from the noise of life, of the demands of the daily grind. You have silenced the distractions. You are fully present. Embodied.

That’s why sudden journeys matter to me. Sometimes you travel all this way because you can’t deny that longing, that calling.

Leave space for your own scene

If you want to name your own calling landscape, don’t start with explanation. Start with sensation:

• What happens in your body when the place comes to mind?

• What do you do, almost automatically, as you approach it?

• What gets quiet in you when you’re there?

• What do you grieve there? Softly, even if you never say it out loud?

• What part of you feels more honest in that landscape than anywhere else?

And if you’re willing, write it as a scene not an argument. If I were there and we were gathered around the table, I'd ask you these questions:

What did the air smell like? What colors do you remember?
What did your skin feel? What as the song playing as the soundtrack to the moment? Maybe it’s a poem.
What sound was constant in the background?
Who was beside you or who weren’t you with, for once? Who did you carry with you in your thoughts?

Because that’s the thing about landscapes that call us. They’re not always calling us to a destination. Sometimes they’re calling us to a deeper pause. A different way of being present. A truer attention.

A way of being where, for a moment, we belong. Not as owners, not as consumers. As human beings in contact with the world that makes us.

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Come With Me to the Highlands

6 Days | The Scottish Highlands & Edinburgh | September 6th - 11th 2026

There are landscapes that impress you. And then there are landscapes that rearrange you. Each year, I return to the Scottish Highlands with a small group of travelers. We journey as fellow wayfarers answering a call. We rise early for light that feels almost liturgical. We walk through glens that hold both beauty and grief. We linger long enough for space to become place. This is not a checklist tour. It is a slow unfolding. A gathering of kindred spirits who feel the pull toward wildness, history, ancestry, and the kind of belonging that isn’t be manufactured.

If the Scottish Highlands have been tugging at you perhaps it’s time to listen. To answer the call. Join me and a small band of travelers September 6th - 11th 2026. Together we will spend 3 nights in the highlands and 2 nights in Edinburgh. More info at Sudden Journeys.

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Hello there! I’m Kyle, the soul behind Sudden Journeys. I’m a writer, photographer, and founder of Sudden Journeys. I’ve spent the last few decades exploring: guiding travelers, leading tours, living abroad, and paying close attention to what landscapes, rooms, and encounters awaken in us. I write about place and belonging, hospitality and gathering, the practice of attention through journaling, and the home life between departures. Originally from a small town south of Nashville; I divide my time between the English countryside, London, and wherever the road takes me next.

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The past lingers in certain cities, not just in the cobbled streets but hangs in the atmosphere. It had been twenty-five years since I first stepped off a train in Prague, worn out from a long day of travel (I’d taken the wrong train to Slovenia… but that’s another story), yet thrilled to finally arrive. The city felt like a reward. I was young then, 20 and moving through the world with an openness only possible when you have yet to learn what to guard against.

Prague is a dream of a city, hauntingly beautiful with its gothic spires and storybook facades, a place that seemed to exist outside of time. I remember standing on the Charles Bridge at dawn, the statues looming like sentinels in the fog, the river Vltava moving quietly below. I had been alone but not lonely, content in my solitude. In my smoky hostel bar, I sipped on liquid green absinthe, burning sugar in a spoon over a candle flame. The ritual felt ancient, almost alchemical, as if I were conjuring something lost or forgotten. I played guitar to broke backpackers in exchange for a free night stay. I filled my journal with observations and half-formed prayers, and let myself get lost in the maze of streets that spilled out from Old Town. The days belonged to me entirely, an unbroken stretch of possibility.

Returning now, a quarter-century later, I find the city familiar, but something has shifted. There is an ache in revisiting a place that once belonged to your younger self, a subtle tension between who you were then and who you are now. My time in Prague was brief yet a reminder that you can return to an old city and see it through a new eyes.

And then there is Berlin.

Berlin left an even deeper mark. When I first arrived in 2000, it was still shaking off the dust of its past… raw, unfinished, electric. I took a ten-hour walking tour at an attempt to make sense of the city. That day, history wrapped itself around me and never quite let go.

Over the years, I returned again and again, mostly as a tour leader with student groups. We walked through Berlin past cranes and scaffolding, past monuments to both horror and hope.

Berlin does not offer lightness. It is a city built on the fault lines of history, a city that has been broken and rebuilt. But it is also a place of extraordinary resilience. A city that bears its scars without apology.

Even now, the city feels like a study in contrasts. Rebirth and memory live side by side. You can sit at a café window, drinking coffee where the Wall once stood. You can walk past a bodega that sells Turkish kebabs and mobile SIM cards and look up to find a Stolperstein embedded in the pavement: a brass plaque marking where someone was taken from their home and never returned.

Today, Berlin is polished in ways it wasn’t before. The edges have softened but the undercurrent remains. As I move through these places, I think of my younger self, the girl who believed in going without knowing, of her willingness to sit in discomfort. Berlin has a strange pull on me. I cannot claim to understand it fully, but I relate to its contrasts. It's darkness. But also its will to begin again. And hope. So much hope.

And so on my long train travels home, I found myself dreaming of a new journey. A winter rail crossing through the cities that have shaped me and my love for travel: Budapest, Prague, Vienna, Amsterdam. A season of slow travel. A winter's interlude. All by train.

For anyone who once dreamed of interrailing through Europe but never had the chance. For those who long for less rush, more depth.

Perhaps this is the time.

Join me this winter for a slow, beautiful journey across Europe by train.

Details coming soon.

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There’s a kind of beauty that asks very little of us: a pleasing view, a lovely façade, a “wow” moment captured before it disappears. And then there’s the beauty John O’Donohue is talking about in this conversation with Krista Tippett, beauty as a human calling. Beauty as a slow, substantial becoming. Beauty as an “emerging fullness,” a deeper elegance of spirit, and a homecoming for “the enriched memory of your unfolding life.”

Ugh. That phrase … it lands like a hand on the shoulder.

Because most of us have been trained be it by advertising, by hustle culture, by the mythology of the perfect trip to think of beauty as something outside us. A place to arrive at. A scene to stand inside. A checklist of visible, photographable loveliness.

But what I appreciate is that O’Donohue keeps turning the gaze inward. Not to make us navel-gaze, but to restore a lost balance: the symmetry between the way we are outward in the world and the way we are inward with ourselves. He suggests that our crisis isn’t only exhaustion, or distraction, or overscheduling. It’s a quiet evacuation of interiority. A slow thinning-out of the inner world.

And if that’s true, then travel — which we often treat as an external cure — becomes something more demanding and more honest:

Not “Where should I go next?”
But “How should I be when I get there?”

The landscape that forms you

O’Donohue begins where all true philosophy begins: with a place.

He speaks of the Burren limestone, bare and surreal, an “invitation to extend your imagination,” set beside the ocean’s ancient conversation with stone. He is not romanticizing nature the way we sometimes do, as a postcard cure-all.

He’s describing something subtler: the way a landscape can educate your perception.

It matters, he says, whether you walk out into “dead geographical location” (merely the space between you and your destination) or whether you step into a living presence, “as much if not more alive as you, but in a totally different form.” And if you meet it with reverence, it reveals itself.

That word reveals is doing a lot of work.

We tend to think a place is simply there .. and we are the ones who interpret it, use it, consume it. But what if the relationship is reciprocal? What if a landscape is not just scenery, but a presence that calls something out of us… attentiveness, humility, wonder, stillness?

What if the point of travel is not to conquer distance, but to be changed by what we meet?

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The two journeys, happening at once

There is the outer itinerary: trains, keys, confirmations, dinners, the museum ticket, the perfect pub.

And then there is the inner itinerary, which rarely shows up on the schedule but is the real journey: the stories you tell yourself while you walk; the memories that rise uninvited; the grief that finally has room to breathe (hello tears at 35,000 feet above the world!) ; the sudden tenderness you didn’t know you still had.

We can cross an ocean and never leave our own noise. Or we can sit on a bench in a city we’ve “seen” a hundred times and feel something inside us unlock. I can’t express the times I’ve wander the same streets in New York or Rome, London or Paris and yet the experience shifts because my inner world is unlocking new ways of seeing myself or revealing, unveiling hidden emotions.

O’Donohue says landscape calls us into “a mindful mode of stillness, solitude, and silence, where you can truly receive time.” Not conquer it. Not optimize it. Receive it.

Receive: like a gift. Like rain. Like music. Like the kind of afternoon where nothing impressive happens and yet you return to yourself. Those moments are so necessary.

Travel can be the most elaborate form of avoidance if we use it to outrun our inner lives.

But it can also be a door back in.

Beauty, even without “beautiful” surroundings

Krista Tippett asks a necessary question: what about those who don’t have access to wild coasts and raw horizons? What about inner-city neighborhoods where ugliness feels structural, imposed, unrelenting?

O’Donohue doesn’t pretend this is a small issue. He names the double impoverishment: poverty, plus the deprivation of beauty. And still, he insists that beauty is not only a matter of the outer landscape. Dawn still rises. Twilight still arrives. Even in the roughest places, the elemental world keeps offering itself. This resonates with me as someone who spends a good amount of my life in cities.

And then he says something both practical and mystical: the outer presence can be brought inward through memory or imagination as a sustaining force.

I keep thinking about that.

Because it means that the inner landscape isn’t merely a private psychological space. It is also a kind of refuge we can cultivate… a place of nourishment that isn’t dependent on circumstances being perfect.

Pascal’s advice appears like a small lantern: keep something beautiful in your mind.

Not as denial. Not as toxic positivity. Rather as endurance. As a way to “glimpse sideways” at a contour of beauty when life becomes bleak.

Maybe that’s one of the most honest reasons we travel: not to curate a life that looks beautiful, but to gather beauty that can be carried and recalled when we need to survive.

I can’t help think of my early days in trauma therapy using the method of EMDR. I was asked to prepare a safe, beautiful space in my mind to return to when the traumatic memories because too much.

Ferrari time and the slower zones beneath

O’Donohue calls stress “a perverted relationship to time.” He says we live in surface time (rapid-fire, stolen, over-structured) and forget there are deeper zones within us.

He uses an image I love: the ocean’s surface restless, but below, stillness where everything moves slower.

Travel, done well, should help us descend.

But too often we carry surface time with us: itinerary-packed days, constant documentation, the anxious need to make the trip “worth it.” We turn new places into the same old pressure, just with better scenery.

What would it look like to travel as a practice of changing time levels? To treat time not as a product to spend, but as “the mother of presence”? To let a place teach you how to move.

Some countries do this naturally… the way certain villages seem to have more time than the rest of the world, as if God “made plenty of it.” But the deeper invitation is this: even if your environment doesn’t slow down, you can. Even if the city is loud, you can find the still zone beneath the surface.

And in that zone, something begins to happen: you start receiving your own life again. Maybe the better word is reviving.

A place in you that cannot be touched

One of the most bracing moments in this conversation comes from Meister Eckhart:

“There is a place in the soul that neither time nor space nor no created thing can touch.”

O’Donohue interprets it as a profound distinction: your biography is not your identity.

Sit with that for a minute. I did. I do.

There is a place within you that no created thing can touch. I feel my eyes brim with tears.

There is a place in you that has never been wounded. A sanctuary of seamlessness and sureness.

This isn’t naïve. It’s not saying you haven’t been hurt. It’s saying you are not reducible to your hurt.

And if travel has any sacred purpose, perhaps it is this: to help us visit that inner sanctuary… not by running from our lives, but by stepping out of the grooves that keep repeating them.

Travel can become a threshold and O’Donohue loves thresholds.

He traces the word back to threshing: separating grain from husk. Thresholds are the places where we move into “more critical and challenging and worthy fullness.”

We usually think of thresholds as external: the front door, the border crossing, a pasture gate. But the more consequential thresholds are internal: the moment you realize you can’t keep living the way you have been; the moment you finally let yourself soften; the moment you understand what you truly miss; the moment you stop performing your own life and begin inhabiting it.

And beauty, he says, is not just loveliness… it is what happens when we cross worthily. When we heal patterns of repetition and step onto new ground.

That kind of beauty changes you.

The danger of glamour, and the rescue of interiority

O’Donohue warns against confusing glamour for beauty. Glamour is an image. Beauty is a presence. Glamour consumes attention. Beauty returns you to yourself and often to your highest self.

And he names what feels like one of the defining illnesses of our time: an “evacuation of interiority.”

We are so practiced at outwardness. We can curate and caption and share and keep moving. But we are untrained in the art of inwardness, in the pedagogy of interiority.

No wonder we travel and still feel restless. No wonder we stand in front of a cathedral and feel… nothing. No wonder the “dream destination” can’t keep its promise when the inner world is starving.

So what restores interiority?

He gives three surprisingly simple doorways:

• A great conversation: not intersecting monologues, but an event that changes your altitude, where you “overhear yourself” saying what you didn’t know you knew, and receive words that find lost places in you. When you find friendships or space to hold for those kind of conversations, worth its weight in gold.

• Reading: not the endless scroll, but primary sources: wisdom that stretches your boundaries and wakes up your inner life. Inspires and stirs you.

• Aesthetic encounter: music, poetry, film, theater, dance… experiences that awaken the interior and remind you it exists.

He tells a story of hearing Tchaikovsky in New York and crying… not because it was beautiful, but because something happened. Something opened up within him. Even in a landscape of control and categories, beauty can sweep you off your feet.

That is the antidote to numbness: not more stimulation, but the kind of beauty that makes you feel again. That arouses the senses.

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A new way to travel: curious about the invisible world

So what does this mean for us, practically .. those of us packing bags, planning routes, dreaming of elsewhere?

Maybe it means we stop treating travel as an escape hatch and start treating it as a mirror.

Maybe we begin to ask different questions on the road:

• What does this place reveal in me?

• What part of me goes quiet here?

• What memories are being stirred?

• What am I avoiding by staying busy?

• What beauty do I want to carry home? Not as a photo, but as inner resource?

• What would it look like to be “more intimate to myself,” even for ten minutes today?

We talk so much about immersive travel to the point I grow weary of the thought: food, culture, local life. But there is also immersion into the self. Not the self as ego project, but the self as landscape: layered, weathered, alive, and still becoming.

The Celtic imagination that O’Donohue carries insists that the visible world and the invisible world intertwine constantly. That the outer landscape is alive and so are we. That both are speaking, if we learn to listen.

And perhaps the real art of travel is not seeing more.

It is seeing deeper.

Not just the cliffs and cathedrals, but the inner terrain that rises to meet them.
Not just the world outside your window, but the world that opens in the theater of your mind when you finally slow down enough to receive time.

Beauty is calling, he says. Kalon and kalein… beauty and calling.

And maybe the most honest response, wherever we are, is simply this:

I will go… not just to the place, but to myself.

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"I sought trains, I found passengers." Paul Theroux

This quote rang clear as I listened in on a recent conversation with the brilliant Louis Theroux in London. Weeks later, the comment has lingered with me. As I thought of this line, I reflect on my decades of travel and the people I've met, the stories I've learned and friendships made.

I recalled the time I backpacked around Europe as a 20 year old. Throughout my travels, I shot portraits of various people I encountered. The man who sold me postcards in Prague, the artist sketching scenes in East Berlin, the fruit seller who I purchased fresh figs from in Florence. Upon my return to college, I produced a body of photographic work which I titled, A Portrait of a City. Each image was a portrait of someone I'd met and I title the image after the name of the city. To this day, I treasure those images and the memories attached to them.

The following year, I found myself living in Manhattan. I was struck by the friendliness of strangers in a way I hadn't experienced in the South. A particular moment plays out in my mind's eye. I am sat on a park bench on the Upper West Side looking out over the Hudson River eating an apple. A young man, who from his dress I knew he was Hasidic, sat down next to me. Over the next hour, I learned all about being Jewish in New York, his work as a jeweler and the history of Diamond Row. An entirely new world opened to me from one conversation.

From that moment on, I decided I would talk to a stranger every day while living in Manhattan. On the subway, in a diner, on a park bench, in a cab or in a coffeeshop. Since then, I've carried that practice with me throughout my life. Because of it, I have made friends with people in the most seemingly insignificant ways.

Travel has a unique, transformative power that emerges through the interactions we have with people we encounter. These interactions, no matter how fleeting, hold the potential to leave a lasting impact, offering us insights into diverse cultures, life perspectives, and stories that we would otherwise remain oblivious to.

Many of us often underestimate the power of these human connections when setting out on a journey. However, it is these unplanned encounters that often become the highlight of our trips. They bring us face-to-face with the unadulterated reality of a place beyond its touristy façade, offering us a chance to experience its soul.

These days, my world tends to be confined to my lovely but often lonely, isolated cottage life. When I do re-immerse myself in the world and engage with people beyond transactions, I feel myself come alive.

So, when I was recently given the opportunity to join a creative retreat and business workshop for tour operators, I jumped at the opportunity. Not only was this an enlightening professional experience; it was also a gateway into a vibrant community of peers – much needed in this season of my life. It also reinforced the impact of group travel and friendships made.

As you plan your next trip, remember to leave room for the unexpected. Open your heart and mind to the people you will meet, and let these encounters shape your journey. Every stranger you meet could be a friend in the making and a story waiting to unfold. And who knows, you might just come back with stories of your own A Portrait of a City.

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Too often we treat time for ourselves as selfish or indulgent, as if rest must be earned, or solitude justified. But this past September I did something I’d never done before: I took an entire week just for me. I found a small villa on a Greek island I’d never even heard of and booked it.

At first, the guilt rose quickly. I shouldn’t spend the money. I should be working. I should be home.

But I quieted those voices long enough to press “book,” and the moment I did, a wave washed over me.. relief, excitement, a deep exhale. It felt like I had finally given myself something I’d been needing for far too long.

The Joys of Traveling Alone

Solo travel is not about being brave. It’s about being present. It gives you back parts of yourself you didn’t realize you’d handed away

It slows you down.
It reveals what you actually love.

It teaches you to trust your instincts, your desires, your rhythms.
And it reminds you that solitude is not loneliness… it is glorious spaciousness.

When you travel alone, it’s almost as if everything tastes different, sounds different, feels different. I find my senses more aroused, probably because I’m not thinking of those in need around me. I am fully present with myself.

You notice sounds, see light shifting, and become more aware of quiet stirrings of your own interior world in ways that the day to day demands of life often claim.

You begin to realize that being alone isn’t empty.. it’s full. Beautifully full of life to experienced on your own terms.

How to Start Small (and Why You Should)

1. Start with a meal.
Take yourself to breakfast. Breakfast is less intimidating than dinner, and there’s something comforting about beginning the day with yourself. Bring a book or journal if it helps. Let your nervous system ease into it.

2. Take a drive or a long walk with no destination.
Wander. Turn down a road because it looks beautiful. Let your thoughts catch up with you. Maybe take a long way home vs the normal route, stop along the way because your curiosity affords you a moment to discover something new.

3. Do one thing you usually reserve for “later.”
The slow meal.
The museum.

The bookshop.

Explore town without an agenda.
The thing you never make time for.

Do it alone, without rushing.

4. Book one night away… close, easy, familiar.
You don’t need a plane ticket. You need space. A night in a nearby town or countryside or city hotel can shift more than you think. I love a staycation in my hometown. I feel I experience the city differently.

5. Practice not explaining yourself.
This might be the most transformative part. You owe no one a reason for wanting rest, quiet, or separation from the constant demands of your life. I talk to too many people - both men and women - who all have a reason why now isn’t the right time because of work, family demands, money, etc. Take the trip. Do it. Book to room. Time doesn’t wait for you.

6. Create a ritual that is just yours

A morning walk. A fire at night. A slow breakfast.

These small rituals become anchors when you eventually venture farther. I have found myself always writing in a cafe or bar late evening. I love this time of night to process, unwind and allow myself to empty the day on a page. I also love lingering over a long dinner. We are talking two hours. When you spend a lifetime (what it feels like!) cooking endless meals for your family, the quiet luxury of someone preparing a beautiful meal to enjoy is one to savor.. and I do.

7. Build trust with yourself in increments.
Courage compounds. A breakfast becomes a day trip. A day trip becomes a weekend. A weekend becomes a week spent floating in the sea or wandering a mountain range.

And one day, you’ll look up.. perhaps with a view pointing towards the Atlas Mountains as I am at this very moment and realize:

You are no longer afraid to be with yourself.

Why It Matters

Being alone teaches you to listen… really listen … to the places inside you that get drowned out by noise, duty, and expectation. It teaches you to tune into what you want, not what everyone else wants of you.

It slows you down.
It brings you into your body.
It recalibrates you.
It expands your inner world so you can return to the outer one with more compassion, more energy, more clarity.

It lets you remember who you are when no one is watching. And somewhere in the quiet, you begin to hear that inner voice..

You deserve this kind of tenderness.
You deserve moments that belong only to you.

Solo travel is not a performance. It is not an act of defiance. Please here me: It is not selfish.

Time alone.. true, generous, uninterrupted time.. changes the way you inhabit your own life. I find it to be healing in ways I don’t realize I need.

And once you taste that kind of homecoming.. even in small doses… you’ll never again believe the lie that you could “never” travel alone or that you “shouldn’t”. You’ll know, with everything in you, that you can.

And here’s the truth: You don’t take these trips to escape your life.

You take them to return to it more fully.

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I’ve been thinking lately about the small, unannounced moments that make a life… those little vignettes that slip between the bigger headlines and the day-to-day. The flashes of humanity.

For the past three months I’ve lived in a state of near-constant motion: crossing continents and time zones, cities and countryside, cultures and customs:

Norway’s fjords and mountain passes.
Greece’s islands and Athens’ graffitied chaos.
Italy’s familiarity and comfort food.
The Cotswolds with its honey-colored villages and cozy pubs.
New York City’s vibrant energy.
Charleston’s palmettos, blue sky, and front porches.
Nashville’s wide-open heart and pedal steel.
Edinburgh’s early-winter shadows and gothic spires.
London’s rush and daily rhythms.

Morocco’s warm embrace and haunting call to prayer

Everywhere I’ve gone… every border crossed, every city street walked, every conversation held, every workshop and gathering… I’ve been struck by the same thing:

the moments.

Not the big sweeping ones, but the ordinary ones.

And throughout it all, I kept thinking: If this is what the world still looks like… if this is what people are choosing… then there is so much to hope for.

Because what I’ve seen, over and over again, is that people are still reaching for one another.

Still gathering.
Still choosing presence over performance.
Still willing to sit shoulder-to-shoulder with someone they’ve only just met and say, “Tell me who you are. Tell me what you love. Tell me what you’re hoping for.”

The news cycles tell us one story: fear, division, unraveling.

But my own eyes have told me another.

It’s hopeful, this thing I’m witnessing. Not naive. Not ignoring what’s hard in the world. But grounded in something I can actually see: people choosing each other. People deciding that gathering matters. People showing up, again and again, to the simple, revolutionary act of being present with other human beings.

These months of travel have taught me that the world is full of so much beauty, so much richness, so much goodness. Full of people who want to gather and learn and celebrate and see one another clearly.

It reminds me that life isn’t lived in sweeping arcs, but in small vignettes… those brief scenes when something true breaks through.

A shared meal.
A spontaneous friendship.
A conversation that deepens your connect.
A moment of softness.
A sense of belonging you didn’t expect.

And maybe that’s the most hopeful thing I can offer you, wherever you are reading this from.

Maybe that’s the real geography we should be paying attention to: not the place we’re traveling to, but the people we’re choosing to travel with. Not the destination, but the moments of life happening around us. It’s not the story the world tells us about differences and fracture, but the story we’re actually living.. the one where people still believe enough in each other to show up.

May you choose to see the small vignettes of life happening around you in the day to do.

That is worth being feeling hopeful for. Being thankful for.

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New York reveals itself in layers, in moments caught between the noise: the hush before the light changes, the rhythm of footsteps on sidewalks, the screech of metal on metal of subway cars, the sudden bloom of steam rising from a manhole into the cold air. It is a city that moves with certainty, with a kind of restless poetry, carrying its inhabitants forward whether they are ready or not.

This last week, I have been wrapped in its momentum, swallowed by its avenues, drifting between conversations in rooms high above the streets, where the talk was of business and strategy, of marketing and message, of how to make the ephemeral feel tangible. I stood at podiums, sat at round tables, and lingered over drinks late into the night hours sharing ideas with people from around the world who, like me, believe in the power of travel. Not just in where we go, but in how a place makes us feel … and why that matters now more than ever.

Geographer Yi-Fu Tuan wrote that place is not just a point on a map but an accumulation of experience, memory, and meaning. This city is more than its streets and skyline; it is a living record of what has been felt within it. How I feel the weight of that truth on this trip.

New York holds a part of me, just as it holds so many others. It is where I first learned the art of moving quickly and decisively. It is also where, on a harrowing September morning, I walked through ash-covered streets, feeling the shocking, sharp grief of a city brought to its knees… and the determined resilience that followed.

Even now, decades later, there are corners of this city that stir something raw and unspoken, where memory and place collapse into each other. I felt this deeply on my first morning exploring lower Manhattan. Resurrected scenes rip at the seam of heartbreak and sorrow. Nostalgia and grief are woven into its architecture, tucked into its subways and street corners, its bridges and bodegas. But so too is endurance. Reinvention. Though I confess the city feels weary and worn, I sense the city’s unshakable will to go on.

This reflection colors my thoughts on my final morning. I make myself tea and gather my belonging. I stop what I am doing and turn my gaze across the Hudson as I watch Manhattan from a distance, its skyline catching the early light. The sun climbs higher, gilding the glass and steel, reflecting off the river that hems the island in. From my hotel room, I glance at the people below move with purpose, already deep into their morning routines. The Mk.gee song “I Want” plays as the soundtrack to these scenes. I turn back to luggage, half packed and sprawling on my bed. It is time to go.

I will hold this scene in my mind as if willing myself to remember these cherished moments. I needed to plant my feet back on American soil. Soon, I will cross the Atlantic, trading the towering verticals of Manhattan for the vast, open sprawl of the English countryside.

New York has a way of pulling something from you, asking more than you think you have to give, but offering something intangible in return: a sharpened sense of self, a clearer understanding of what matters.

And now, at JFK, in the quiet limbo between departure and arrival, I take a last look across the tarmac at the barely visible city rising against the horizon before turning toward my gate. I will return, as I always do. But for now, the road leads elsewhere.

Before me, Berlin.

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Winter Travel Highlights

• Budapest to Ljubljana Student Tour: Once a year I lead a student tour for two weeks somewhere in Europe. As always, it is such fun to return to leading students. I adore the opportunity to work with this age group as they bring such joy, silliness, curiousity and often a willingness to be vulnerable to a travel experience. We spent our days learning traditional dances, roaming cities on tuktuks and trams, eating way too much goulash and ultimately delighting in being together.

• Train Journey across Europe: After my student tour ended, I chose to take the long way home by train across Europe as a sort of a quiet rebellion against the urgency of work, a surrender to slowness. It had been 15 years since I first wandered the streets cities like Vienna and Amsterdam. Returning now, I felt the sudden ache of revisiting places that once belonged to my younger self. These slow days became a chance to re-immerse, to reflect, and much needed time to simply be.

• New York City: I am still buzzing after an enriching travel event for tour operators. So many good conversations and partnerships forming over those few days. It was a joy and honor to be asked to present on the topic of why design matters and how effective visual communication can help craft a compelling narrative when it comes to digital marketing and website design.

In the ink-washed dusk, the adhan rang out: a sonorous monotone, joined within seconds by a dozen more voices, rising in a chorus that commanded the sky. When the muezzin sounds the call to prayer, it adds texture to the story unravelling all around me. The moment weaves an enchantment that I don’t dare break. It's an ancient sound that reverberates across the Red City. I absorb the moment, allowing its sounds and sights to make its lasting imprint on me.

I return to writing. My pen hovers over the crisp blank pages. I am about to record my first moment in Marrakech.

Had I not been in Portugal but hours ago? That morning, I left Lisbon blurry-eyed as the sun rose over the city. A remnant of last night clung to me like the faint scent of a lover whose memory only remains. I recall sipping sangria, sheep cheese, the hum of conversation outside a taverna. The air hummed with music and poetry, a spell woven by the sounds of Fado. I remember being utterly captivated by the woman’s voice, haunting and resonant, echoing through the narrow, winding alleyways of the Alfama and a waning moon bathed the city in its soft, ethereal light. I thought about the contrast that I hadn't known was coming: heat, color, smells, language, an iteration of the world I'd never seen.

Morocco… There is something about its cultures, both Arab and Berber, that is deeply compelling: at once inscrutable and full of heart. I describe my first encounter with Marrakech like a sudden slap to the face followed by a warm embrace.

Little did I know, Marrakech was already beginning to lure me, a subtle seduction that would deepen with each passing day.

Mornings begin with steaming cups of mint tea and birdsong. I wake in darkness but for the small streams of light slipping through the cracks of a single window. Riads have no windows looking outside, only towards the inner courtyard. In terms of architecture, the facade and walls of the Riad are distinguished by their privacy features. Unlike regular buildings that have openings facing the exterior, Riads’ windows are always facing the interior courtyard and garden instead, not only for providing privacy for the family, as it is supported by the islamic conception of intimacy.

After a time lingering in bed, I climb the narrow tiled steps towards the roof. Breakfast is served on the rooftop terrace among draped vines and billowing curtains, and is an affair to remember. First comes the fruit salad, so intricately cut and perfectly arranged, you could photograph it and turn it into an NFT. As if this isn't enough, there are shakshuka-style Berber eggs and loubia (Moroccan white beans) with sun-dried tomatoes and merguez sausage, freshly mixed smoothies of greens and citrus, baskets of warm beghrir (traditional pancakes) and m’semen (flatbreads) with little glass pots of amlou, the almond, honey and Aragon oil condiment that’s a Moroccan staple. How will I ever return to breakfast as usual again I wonder.

As I savor the final moments of breakfast, Abdallah - my local guide for the day - joins me. His arrival is marked by a gentle panting, a fact he immediately attributed to the stairs, and a quick explanation that Marrakech, though sprawling, was blessedly flat. He is a small, dapper figure, an image seemingly lifted from a bygone era. His attire—cream linen, a stylish hat, aviator shades—conjured a romantic vision of 1920s North Africa. I couldn't help but feel a pang of self-consciousness; compared to his effortless style, my own attire felt decidedly inadequate for venturing into the labyrinth of the Medina’s souks.

We set off by foot, and almost immediately, I felt a subtle shift. It is a remarkable transformation. It is as if an invisible shield had materialized around me. Until that moment, my solitary presence felt strangely exposed, drawing unwanted attention. I had been the focal point. But now, that had changed. I am no longer the spectacle; I am simply an observer, a witness, finally free to absorb and capture the world around me.

The exotic atmosphere of Jemaa el-Fnaa Square is a carcophy of sounds, smells and visuals. A table piled high with human teeth is brought to my attention, a man gives me a toothless grin. Not exactly how I imagined the tooth fairy. The noise reaches a crescendo with the snake charmers competing for your attention. Snakes are coiled on faded carpets. I avert my eyes. I wonder if the snakes dream in sounds. Rug sellers unfurled their azilals and kilims like exotic heraldry, juice vendors beckoned. A man with a monkey on his shoulder taunts us. Throughout my week in Marrakech, I'd discover another side to this square. As the sun sets and darkness descends Jema, as it's known, is transformed into a mix of Berber and Arab fantasy. Chefs fire up their grills. The square fills with intoxicating smoke. Gas lanterns cast patchy light across rows of stalls. I soak up the square’s theatrics. Both the entertainers themselves and the shrill of excitement from tourists add to the carnival atmosphere of fortune tellers and snake charmers. I liisten to storytellers recant the heritage of ancient Berber tribes and entertain the evening crowds with mystical readings and theatrics. I can still imagine the moment in my mind's eye.

Weaving through the Kasbah and the Mellah – the old Jewish market – I sample and savor as my guide proudly produces one offering after another: kefteh sliced off skewers in strips, olives brined with cilantro or rosemary or cumin, picked from huge wood spoons dipped into vats. There are honey-soaked briouates and amlou, the Berber butter made from crushed almonds, honey and argan oil. I walk and walk. I lean in earnestly to taste this and that, to decipher the French and accented English over Arabic pop blaring from various speakers. I trod quickly but carefully; navigating people and donkey drawn carts and darting scooters, fielding waves of color and sound. For almost three hours I traverse the old souks, encircled by their thousand-year-old walls. By mid afternoon, we wander the 16th-century Ben Youssef Madrasa. I run my hands over zellige-tiled walls and Koranic verses rendered in carved plaster. I continue my venture back into the souks around Mouassine, whose wider alleys are more tranquil. I take photos: red doors against pink walls, ornate incisions in silver lanterns, the patterns and shapes that caught and held my attention. Baskets of spices. Bundles of yarn. Piles of shoes. Capturing a visual tapestry of a city.

By late afternoon, I am ready to leave the chaos in the streets behind me. Navigating the labyrinth of corridors, I disappear into the womb of my riad. I exhale. This is a stark contrast to the outside. I retreat to my room where I lay down and absorb the memories of the day. Delicate patterns of light spread across the bed, filtered through the latticed menzeh window. The late afternoon muezzin was fainter here; I pause to listen. The quiet was a balm to my overstimulated mind.

Dusk falls and once again I climb the narrow tiled stairs to the rooftop terrace. I need to write, to record and process the scenes of the day. At some point, I stop to listen to one last prayer call – pennants of sound released into the air, spiraling up, fading into the deep blue.

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